11/3 7:37 AM so, this
is, prison notebook, day by day, will be, for eight days, not sure why, google
books, took so much hardware space, if you upload something, dealt with,
thierry bokanosky, and roger frie, yesterday, both can be used, in 12/9 SP,
history is more elusive than "context", because "lived
experiences" cannot be reduced to reasoning or concepts, being is
way-of-life itself, and way-of-life is exactly the only thing worth fighting
for, 11/3 5:51 PM H2 one heart failure, H3 one depression with
self-inflicted wounds, one parkinson's disease with schizophrenia, one
impending manic recurrence, 11/4 8:51 AM more or less, we all are someone
else's unfinished dreams, 1:49 PM H3 one SR OB (4+), 4:49 PM litany against
fear, christian scott (2007), recommended by harry bosch (the wrong side of
goodbye, 2016), the horn was not distinctive enough, however, compared to chet
baker, 5:56 PM bosch just visited Abigail in the Sierra Winds, and heard about
the story of that sad day in Feb 1951, 6:27 PM "Mr. Vance?" "Mr.
Vance, are you there?" "Mr. Vance, is that you?" 9:53 PM Nick
had a daughter, so Vance has a granddaughter 10:59 PM bosch just came back from
the trip to santa clarita, with Lourdes, for the stolen knife, to no avail, two
unsolved cases 11:55 PM well, what you know, vance died the next day after he
met bosch, and, bosch got the envelop from vance, via ida, which made bosch the
executor of his will, then bosch called his half-brother haller, who is on the
way, inside of thirty 11/5 6:38 AM duty till 8 AM, exchange of duty, sunday
free, even bosch said that it was too old for him, though he must be 67 (in
2016) already, and i'm "only" 61, well, i'm not proud of being a
complainer, simply that this is heavy stuff, real burden, not cozy bullshit, i
know that i can choose, in fact, have to choose, by feb 2018, whether to
continue living like this, or start private practice, of my own 6:58 AM all in
all, i am nothing, compared to the historical situation, between china and
taiwan, dislike fundamentalists, whether china or taiwan, yet, it is endemic,
both china and taiwan, don't feel like to follow the way of oppositionally
conflict-provoking hatred, but is forced to be drowned in it, there is no
historical wisdom here, such situation takes TIME to resolve, takes time for
china to go through regime transition, but, see no hope for it to occur in
china, yet, see no wisdom or courage either in taiwan, the politicians in both
sides enjoy talking about "for the people", yet, they both are
"fucking the people", 11/5 10:29 AM and they have escaped the
weight of darkness (ólafur arnalds 2010), Flýja - For Ólafur Arnalds, in
front of 1209 SP 3:07 PM bella disappeared, now, michael, will you let her live? 11/5 7:05 PM bella survives, thank god, now, the vance mystery, the pen was there on the desk, when he was found dead, then, it was not there, when the pasadena detectives went back to do follow-up, yet, bosch received the letter, with the pen, so when was the letter mailed? before vance died, or after? if after, then who wrote that letter? 7:50 PM well, fin, sloan loyal, ida tried to cover up and killed vance, bella will be back, bosch got a full-time job, temporarily, because he would not like to take advantage of bella 11/6 4:02 AM one day at a time 4:43 AM windy, in the darkness, before dawn 11:18 PM three consultations (tomorrow morning) 11/7 4:07 AM roy barsness (July 20, 2017), edited text on relational psychoanalysis, useful (but disappointing 11/7) 4:17 AM two hours before dawn, four hours before duty fin, now, another duty day on Thursday, though preoccupied everyday till Friday 4 PM, call it a normal week, no rest till then, wondering if such life makes sense, have to persuade myself to believe it does 11/7 7:30 PM jack reacher, the midnight line, has arrived, he is going to rapid city, where i was once asked, in a friendly way, are you lost? 11/8 1:57 PM MC (3-4 PM), that dinner (6-8 PM) 11/9 9:21 PM 214 pages so far, the only action was that bear or mountain lion, reacher must be old, now, tomorrow morning clinic, then a meeting at 2 PM, then fucking weekend, FINALLY
