https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qjVwfJdOP14
本不知有這部片子懷念1997前的香港這我先前說過
These ponderings attempt to let themselves be appropriated by the event. (Beiträge zur Philosophie (Vom Ereignis), Martin Heidegger, 1936–38/1989)
Monday, October 31, 2016
John Gedo (2017)
The Biology of Clinical Encounters: Psychoanalysis as a Science of Mind, by John E. Gedo, Routledge, March 2, 2017
In The Biology of Clinical Encounters, Gedo utilizes recent findings in neuroscience and cognitive psychology to elaborate his conception of psychobiology and to consider its implications in clinical analysis. He pursues this challenging undertaking in several directions. He illuminates the way in which psychobiology enters into his hierarchical model of mental functioning, and goes on to examine three clinical syndromes - phobias, obsessions, and affective disturbances - in which biological considerations are particularly important. Of special note are chapters examining the implications of a biological approach for clinical psychoanalysis. Gedo explores the notion of transference that grows out of attentiveness to psychobiological factors, elaborates the concept of therapeutics that follows from looking beyond mental contents, and discusses the problem of assessing clinical evidence produced by analyses informed by a psychobiological orientation. Drawing on his own analytic work of over three decades, he compares analyses conducted with a psychobiological orientation with the outcome of analyses conducted earlier in his career with a more traditional psychological approach. (amazon)
SF & RN
1. Ferenczi, Severn, and the Origins of Trauma Theory: Mutual Analysis (Relational Perspectives Book Series), by Peter L. Rudnytsky, Routledge, August 9, 2017
2. The Discovery of the Self: A study in psychological cure (Relational Perspectives Book Series), by Elizabeth Severn, ed. by Peter L. Rudnytsky, Routledge, March 10, 2017 (kindle 2017-4-16)
Elizabeth Severn, known as "R.N." in Sandor Ferenczi’s Clinical Diary, was Ferenczi’s analysand for eight years, the patient with whom he conducted his controversial experiment in mutual analysis, and a psychoanalyst in her own right who had a transformative influence on his work. The Discovery of the Self is the distillation of that experience and allows us to hear the voice of one of the most important patients in the history of psychoanalysis. However, Freud branded Severn Ferenczi’s "evil genius" and her name does not appear in Ernest Jones’s biography, so she has remained largely unknown until now. This book is a reissue of Severn’s landmark work of 1933, together with an introduction by Peter L. Rudnytsky that sets out the unrecognized importance of her thinking both for the development of psychoanalysis and for contemporary theory.
Inspired by the realization that Severn has embedded disguised case histories both of herself and of Ferenczi, as well as of her daughter Margaret, Rudnytsky shows how The Discovery of the Self contains "the other side of the story" of mutual analysis and is thus an indispensable companion volume to the Clinical Diary. A full partner in Ferenczi’s rehabilitation of trauma theory and champion of the view that the analyst must participate in the patient’s reliving of past experiences, Severn emerges as the most profound conduit for Ferenczi’s legacy in the United States, if not in the entire world.
Lacking any institutional credentials and once completely marginalized, Elizabeth Severn can at long last be given her due as a formidable psychoanalyst. Newly available for the first time in more than eighty years, The Discovery of the Self is simultaneously an engaging introduction to psychotherapy that will appeal to general readers as well as a sophisticated text to be savored by psychoanalytic scholars and clinicians as a "prequel" to the works of Heinz Kohut and a neglected classic of relational psychoanalysis. (amazon)
Shine On You Crazy Diamond
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WNJlKaF8sJc
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0qjpOLj7WSY
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8UXircX3VdM
well, simply shine, simply crazy, simply fucking great
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0qjpOLj7WSY
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8UXircX3VdM
well, simply shine, simply crazy, simply fucking great
Echoes (Pink Floyd)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jzeNFjsrb1Q
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EiN6of3rBW4
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EiN6of3rBW4
Sunday, October 30, 2016
Saturday, October 29, 2016
Ludwig Binswanger (1881-1966)
1. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ludwig_Binswanger
2. https://drive.google.com/file/d/0B5viXpvvYMYEWDU2ZFBoVmNVWU0/view?usp=sharing
3. https://drive.google.com/file/d/0B5viXpvvYMYELTU1cGVPQ1lwMkE/view?usp=sharing
4. https://drive.google.com/file/d/0B5viXpvvYMYESGU3a2NrUmFxRk0/view?usp=sharing
5. Binswanger, L. (1957). Freud: Reminiscences of a friendship (N. Guterman, Trans.). New York, NY: Grune and Stratton. (not available yet)
6. Being-in-the-world: Selected papers of Ludwig Binswanger, ed. by Jacob Needleman, New York, NY: Basic Books, 1962 (accessible via questia)
2. https://drive.google.com/file/d/0B5viXpvvYMYEWDU2ZFBoVmNVWU0/view?usp=sharing
3. https://drive.google.com/file/d/0B5viXpvvYMYELTU1cGVPQ1lwMkE/view?usp=sharing
4. https://drive.google.com/file/d/0B5viXpvvYMYESGU3a2NrUmFxRk0/view?usp=sharing
5. Binswanger, L. (1957). Freud: Reminiscences of a friendship (N. Guterman, Trans.). New York, NY: Grune and Stratton. (not available yet)
6. Being-in-the-world: Selected papers of Ludwig Binswanger, ed. by Jacob Needleman, New York, NY: Basic Books, 1962 (accessible via questia)
Binswanger does not seek spheres of man‘s existence that argue
against the explanatory power of psychoanalysis.
against the explanatory power of psychoanalysis.
What he asks is a Kantian question: "What is it in man that
enables his existence to be explained by psychoanalysis?“
enables his existence to be explained by psychoanalysis?“
When, therefore, Binswanger
complains of the reductionism
of natural science as applied to man, he is not questioning
science‘s ability to explain, he is rather urging that that which
is being explained be kept in mind in its full phenomenal reality.
of natural science as applied to man, he is not questioning
science‘s ability to explain, he is rather urging that that which
is being explained be kept in mind in its full phenomenal reality.
He is not saying to science: "You cannot
explain the spirit of
man"; what he says is: "Be sure it is the spirit of man you are
explaining!"(ibid, p. 4)
Binswanger took Heidegger's analysis of the structure of human
being as it constitutes world and self by being essentially being-in-
the-world as the instrument with which to understand the
existence of his patients.
... he demanded a presuppositionless entering into that world as
the precondition for explanation of it. (ibid, p. 6)
man"; what he says is: "Be sure it is the spirit of man you are
explaining!"(ibid, p. 4)
Binswanger took Heidegger's analysis of the structure of human
being as it constitutes world and self by being essentially being-in-
the-world as the instrument with which to understand the
existence of his patients.
... he demanded a presuppositionless entering into that world as
the precondition for explanation of it. (ibid, p. 6)
to find back the language of the downcast
Abstract
Depression, like most words, nests within a semantic web of similar-but-different words—
call this “the language of the downcast.” The language of the downcast lends itself to
nuanced reflection and analysis. Because our ability to manage our lives depends on the
ability to differentiate and articulate emotions and to represent them in scenarios of causation
and action, this is no small thing. Of late, the language of the downcast has been hollowed
out and rendered feeble, eaten away from the inside by the invading language of Depression—
with a capital D, to make the point that the word has changed, becoming the proper
name of a formal disorder. This impoverishment of language entails destruction of thought
and consequent debility of lives. (Robert T. Fancher (2016) The Humanistic Psychologist, Vol. 44, No. 2, 215–219, italics added)
https://drive.google.com/file/d/0B5viXpvvYMYEbGpqNDlvWHpucXM/view?usp=sharing
Depression, like most words, nests within a semantic web of similar-but-different words—
call this “the language of the downcast.” The language of the downcast lends itself to
nuanced reflection and analysis. Because our ability to manage our lives depends on the
ability to differentiate and articulate emotions and to represent them in scenarios of causation
and action, this is no small thing. Of late, the language of the downcast has been hollowed
out and rendered feeble, eaten away from the inside by the invading language of Depression—
with a capital D, to make the point that the word has changed, becoming the proper
name of a formal disorder. This impoverishment of language entails destruction of thought
and consequent debility of lives. (Robert T. Fancher (2016) The Humanistic Psychologist, Vol. 44, No. 2, 215–219, italics added)
https://drive.google.com/file/d/0B5viXpvvYMYEbGpqNDlvWHpucXM/view?usp=sharing
Ikiru (Akira Kurosawa, 1952)
https://drive.google.com/file/d/0B5viXpvvYMYEcEp5TXFiejVqWVk/view?usp=sharing
that bunny saved them both
Cigarettes After Sex - Affection
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5soixb2U6xM
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O7Xa0jxhXj8
在這個偽善的衛生的禁菸的年頭發現這個樂團讓人感動不管他唱了甚麼鳥
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O7Xa0jxhXj8
在這個偽善的衛生的禁菸的年頭發現這個樂團讓人感動不管他唱了甚麼鳥
One Hour Before The Trip ~ Vagabond
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yoxRxGHYTsg
http://www.ohbtt.gr/
http://www.ohbtt.gr/
拜師吹簫
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OwU9W6fFdRo
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=y2c6QB7-vqY
非常懷念那個屬於大傻的1991的香港每天都可以飲茶遛鳥和拜師學藝和吹簫或被吹簫
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=y2c6QB7-vqY
非常懷念那個屬於大傻的1991的香港每天都可以飲茶遛鳥和拜師學藝和吹簫或被吹簫
台灣連續劇
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sBSrSlqlfHY
taiwan politics, in the last one year, has deteriorated into something, frankly crony, honestly greedy, shamelessly shameless, manipulative, intrusive, rude, demanding, orchestrating lies, yet, always wearing that fucking faint sly smile, like (no, worse than) the famous borderline patient, getting under your skin, or rib, which means, they would not allow you, not to feel, to know, to worship, their presence, from this breath, to the next (2016-10-29)
taiwan politics, in the last one year, has deteriorated into something, frankly crony, honestly greedy, shamelessly shameless, manipulative, intrusive, rude, demanding, orchestrating lies, yet, always wearing that fucking faint sly smile, like (no, worse than) the famous borderline patient, getting under your skin, or rib, which means, they would not allow you, not to feel, to know, to worship, their presence, from this breath, to the next (2016-10-29)
Friday, October 28, 2016
Josef Pieper (1904-1997)
One of the most important philosophy titles published in the twentieth century, Joseph Pieper's Leisure, the Basis of Culture is more significant, even more crucial than it was when it first appeared fifty years ago.
Pieper shows that Greeks understood and valued leisure, as did the medieval Europeans. He points out that religion can be born only in leisure-a leisure that allows time for the contemplation of the nature of God. Leisure has been, and always will be, the first foundation of any culture. He maintains that our bourgeois world of total labor has vanquished leisure, and issues a startling warning: Unless we regain the art of silence and insight, the ability for nonactivity, unless we substitute true leisure for our hectic amusements, we will destroy our culture-and ourselves. These astonishing essays contradict all our pragmatic and puritanical conceptions about labor and leisure; Joseph Pieper demolishes the twentieth-century cult of "work" as he predicts its destructive consequences. (amazon)
Leisure, the Basis of Culture. Translated by Alexander Dru. With an introduction by T.S. Eliot, London: Faber and Faber, 1952. (Originally Muße und Kult. München:Kösel-Verlag, 1948).
this one, was written, in that summer, in the ashes, of war
https://drive.google.com/file/d/0B5viXpvvYMYEZkM1QWpkOFlUUk0/view?usp=sharing
https://drive.google.com/file/d/0B5viXpvvYMYEeGMzQmdoNjZlSlU/view?usp=sharing (with an introduction by T.S. Eliot)
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Josef_Pieper
Thursday, October 27, 2016
沈瑞章是人何況他是台灣人
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aGiyWaBrL0c
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lOuXcLmxJwY
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MY4NNDs7juo (1:13-28;10)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lOuXcLmxJwY
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MY4NNDs7juo (1:13-28;10)
kitaro在西安吹笛子
借此机会他还特意来到西安郊外的兴教寺,这里仍保存着唐玄奘千里迢迢取回的佛经原本。喜多郎用自己特制的长笛吹奏了“奉献给玄奘”的乐曲,“真的在他面前吹笛子,我感到很幸福。”
http://www.people.com.cn/GB/paper68/8294/781682.html
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QzIgRbD_kYY
Kierkegaard’s Rebellion (Peter E. Gordon, NYRB, Nov 10, 2016)
同學們大家不要以為齊克果是個內向溫吞適應障礙的傢伙socratic irony是他(1813-1855)1841年的博士論文題目講存在主義的人會喜歡他是有理由的他跟失明的加拿大樂手jeff healey一樣都只活了42歲
On the Concept of Irony with Continual Reference to Socrates (Danish: Om Begrebet Ironi med stadigt Hensyn til Socrates) is Søren Kierkegaard's 1841 doctoral thesis under Frederik Christian Sibbern.This thesis is the culmination of three years of extensive study on Socrates, as seen from the view point of Xenophon, Aristophanes, and Plato.(https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/On_the_Concept_of_Irony_with_Continual_Reference_to_Socrates)
http://www.nybooks.com/articles/2016/11/10/kierkegaards-rebellion/?utm_medium=email&utm_campaign=NYR%20Kierkegaard%20parenting%20Beach%20Boys&utm_content=NYR%20Kierkegaard%20parenting%20Beach%20Boys+CID_de0ed91307b77eeec3535af04950f79a&utm_source=Newsletter&utm_term=Kierkegaards%20Rebellion
On the Concept of Irony with Continual Reference to Socrates (Danish: Om Begrebet Ironi med stadigt Hensyn til Socrates) is Søren Kierkegaard's 1841 doctoral thesis under Frederik Christian Sibbern.This thesis is the culmination of three years of extensive study on Socrates, as seen from the view point of Xenophon, Aristophanes, and Plato.(https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/On_the_Concept_of_Irony_with_Continual_Reference_to_Socrates)
http://www.nybooks.com/articles/2016/11/10/kierkegaards-rebellion/?utm_medium=email&utm_campaign=NYR%20Kierkegaard%20parenting%20Beach%20Boys&utm_content=NYR%20Kierkegaard%20parenting%20Beach%20Boys+CID_de0ed91307b77eeec3535af04950f79a&utm_source=Newsletter&utm_term=Kierkegaards%20Rebellion
本體需不需要洗澡
本體屬形上難以形狀不應形狀
以物擬之不得已爾
林繼平說理學家素以月擬之
霜降後四日凌晨四點下弦月出山
月屬陰柔不散發強光熱如日
且夜深人靜遂寂明虛如二曲言
問題是多日未洗澡渾身發癢遂無定可言
這說明當代理學家如我應常洗澡
古人居院落無光害吵雜
所見之月應更皎潔今人早不見月
其本體遂如用過多次之保險套
充滿一坨坨黏稠回憶此時確應洗晾烘乾一下
邊洗邊抬首窗外5:50AM雲霧微曦月已復隱
依理學家言日氣耗損遂需保任
同學們點起菸我明確告訴你那是不可能的
意思是說洗不乾淨不要洗了去買一盒新的
邊洗邊抬首窗外5:50AM雲霧微曦月已復隱
依理學家言日氣耗損遂需保任
同學們點起菸我明確告訴你那是不可能的
意思是說洗不乾淨不要洗了去買一盒新的
Wednesday, October 26, 2016
Logan (2017)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xA_3qcLviRE
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Cliff_Martinez (b 1954)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A4ZNrUI_iFw (imagined soundtrack by Tommy Lucas)
The Conspiracy (2012)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X0TqQhBeDP0
now, this one, is very interesting, which tells us, there is another world, behind this world, and, another history, behind this history, yet, we are sure, we know, what is reality, what is real
now, this one, is very interesting, which tells us, there is another world, behind this world, and, another history, behind this history, yet, we are sure, we know, what is reality, what is real
road house (1989)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-QJsljIDKkk
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H7-AObQAldY
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eijz1hSj9u0
Patrick Swayze (1952-2009)
Jeff Healey - As The Years Go Passing By, etc (1966-2008)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gIkOaTVu8uM
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Jeff_Healey
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d0uWqs-ane0&index=9&list=RDgIkOaTVu8uM
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PPBTLGOP3rQ&index=5&list=RDgIkOaTVu8uM
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vJTkFty00Kc&index=13&list=PLF5iYb-c-OFmxnh0ESIhCCaJpMCn0Cyg3 (river of no return)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VV3OYEygSiA (Marcon Georgia Blue)
Tuesday, October 25, 2016
kitaro kitaro kitaro
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0nfLxxuarso
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XhxbShjpwEU
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XhxbShjpwEU
glaston - sailing stormy waters
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ovyGr7q2T1g
(we travel, some of us forever 00:00-4:54) now, forever, means never reach home
train to kaohsiung
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WS7xt1qx42c
仿釜山屍速列車台灣開埠四百年第一部喪屍黑道搞笑鹹濕動作懸疑片王晶導演故事情節精采絕倫感人肺腑動人心弦天九哥領獎坎城影展最佳外語片導演時說感謝本片這些熱愛台灣的演員大家都演得很好
仿釜山屍速列車台灣開埠四百年第一部喪屍黑道搞笑鹹濕動作懸疑片王晶導演故事情節精采絕倫感人肺腑動人心弦天九哥領獎坎城影展最佳外語片導演時說感謝本片這些熱愛台灣的演員大家都演得很好
Beers Criteria
http://www.healthinaging.org/blog/the-2015-updated-ags-beers-criteria-whats-new/
https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/26446832
http://www.americangeriatrics.org/files/documents/beers/BeersCriteriaPublicTranslation.pdf (2012)
http://onlinelibrary.wiley.com/doi/10.1111/jgs.13702/full (2015)
http://www.medscape.com/viewarticle/854836 (see also)
http://www.americangeriatrics.org/
https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/0B5viXpvvYMYEVWk3MkZDNk5zS1E?usp=sharing
https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/26446832
http://www.americangeriatrics.org/files/documents/beers/BeersCriteriaPublicTranslation.pdf (2012)
http://onlinelibrary.wiley.com/doi/10.1111/jgs.13702/full (2015)
http://www.medscape.com/viewarticle/854836 (see also)
http://www.americangeriatrics.org/
https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/0B5viXpvvYMYEVWk3MkZDNk5zS1E?usp=sharing
Monday, October 24, 2016
Mark Rothko (1903-1970)
You need to see these paintings, to experience them as physical entities, to be in their presence in order to get them. (The Hope of Therapy, by Paul Gordon, 2009, p. 71, italics added)
Strictly speaking, it’s not my home town any more. I feel a deep sense of loss at this fact, as if the axis of my memories is faintly, but audibly, creaking within me. It’s a physical sensation. (A Walk to Kobe, by Haruki Murakami, italics added)
Sitting by my father’s bedside, I felt sure that the esoteric philosophical position was alien —so mistaken as almost to be offensive. Here was a man I loved dearly, robbed of his identity because a small clot on his brain had potently wounded his consciousness. Of course consciousness is a physical thing ... (The Ravenous Brain: How the New Science of Consciousness Explains Our Insatiable Search for Meaning, by Daniel Bor, 2012, introduction, italics in the original)
paul gordon is back
http://www.paulgordonpsychotherapy.co.uk/view/whatido.php
our old boy Paul had been away, for quite a while, glad he decided to come back
check it out, especially some writings
our old boy Paul had been away, for quite a while, glad he decided to come back
check it out, especially some writings
Sunday, October 23, 2016
北監 3435
10/23 2:14 PM. 入監前日霜降聽到小澤征爾七英里路 is there a place, called core network, inside the brain, which is supposed to be the home of consciousness? but, citadel, of the senses? (daniel bor, 2012) well, it sounds like a defensively-guarded prison, doesn't it? 讓訊息進來讓經驗穿過你讓它們把你搞亂再看有沒有新的秩序發生或即使不發生也沒有關係因為七英里路半客死他鄉是最好的旅途結局
10/23 3:03 PM. YM (12/21) (rev 1051023)
10/23 3:06 PM. 點起一支Peace
10/23 6:25 PM. s/p lousy traffic
10/24 9:21 AM. was notified just now that L was sent to ICU due to fever and leukopenia 10/22
10/24 4:54 PM. tired. take a break. till 6:00 PM.
10/24 11:33 PM. all quiet on the western front, at least, so far. four consults, tomorrow morning.
10/25 7:25 AM. well, this is day 2.
10/25.10:57 AM. one consult unfinished. ICU-21 transferred back 10/26. 走進陽光
10/25 4:42 PM. "我賺最多" "讓他演" "Welcome" "Of course, (you bitch)" 蘇清公公是一個傑出的吹簫演出家 屁眼們說 輕諾寡信 說得真好
10/25 7:00 PM. remembering kitaro koi. the violin interlude is very very beautiful.
10/26 6:08 PM. this is day 3. two MC case notes (done 7:01 PM). 社關案待評估是否可行 (forward to 正熙, consider asking him to take in charge of this project, 7:32 PM). case report awaits review (done 7:16 PM)
10/27 4:26 AM. day 4. 弦月 山頭
10/27 4:17 PM. just back.
10/27 8:43 PM. W agitated at H2, restraint, RT. titrating clozapine from tomorrow. (DC clozapine, sialorrhea much, 10/28)
10/29 9:12 AM. day 6. duty from 10 PM. not for weak or fainthearted.
10/29 10:47 PM. duty from 10 PM till 10/30 10 PM. ER one, 71 y/o, r/o delirium; H3 one, 70 y/o, manic.
10/30 1:19 AM. H3 new pt AAD. back to the office.
10/30 9:41 AM. ER not yet calling.
10/30 10:31 AM. 清楚穩穩做人 清楚包括看清想清
看清想清 包括台灣大陸 (taiwan watch, china watch) 李登輝留給台灣兩個禮物 一是黑金 一是宋楚瑜 前者培養了他自己和國民黨的吃相優雅 後者造成國民黨分裂 唯其分裂 民進黨才可能一次二次奪權 我先前說過 中共需要出現他們的李登輝 來把龐然巨獸從裡面搞爛 民主才能從中發生 但是看習近平幾年來佈局 這條路越來越不可能了 民進黨的尷尬不在陳水扁有本事亂搞 在陳水扁貪汙 這破壞了革命的integrity和正當性 以目前局勢看來 陳水扁必反撲 順便搞亂所有理性的可能的進程 如果大陸的痛苦在imposed deception和self-censorship 民進黨的痛苦則在吃相難看和self-deception 國民黨的痛苦則在宮廷政治腐敗 且由奢入儉難 不歸零不足以復興 所以顧立雄不知道 他正在做一件幫國民黨死去活來的事 以近一年的變化觀之 蔡英文應會用力做很多糟糕但振振有辭的事 女人玩政 搞了半天小動作和文雅的潑辣 就是演得不大像政治家 雖然台灣男性也沒有人演得好 基本上 這群傢伙 男女不論 皆演技欠佳 跑龍套 在第三世界 混口飯吃而已
10/30 2:43 PM. nine hours to go
10/30 4:39 PM. ER 邱 adm.
10/30 6:11 PM. virtual 白斬雞 for dinner, 所謂畫餅. 還有三小時到LA 轉機十小時
10/31 12:20 MN. windy. sleeping in the airport. waiting for dawn.
10/31 12:13 Noon. 有點急 這樣不好 我知道
10/31 10:18 PM. day 8, very busy. 5 consults, tomorrow morning. day by day. one day at a time.
11/1 6:49 AM. day 9. 邱 agitated, singing loudly, around 3-4 am. sleep for 1+ hr after haldol / anxicam 1/2 amp im, wake up just now, disturbing again. shall add risperidone 1 mg bid from today.
11/2 6:57 PM. 94 y/m, day 10. dementia with depression and BPSD, adm. 小鬼難纏. preview ppt tomorrow noon at 天成.
11/3 1:46 AM. 逐漸成形 原鄉 ordered two books from abebook (uneasy dwelling, daseiinsanalysis) ordered a kindle (mick cooper, 2e, existential therapies)
11/3 3:48 PM. day 11. back from 天成, Nobita 公文宿舍文將出, 11/4 PM 2:00 觀音演習無法派人出席.
11/4 7:46 AM. day 12. 我今天下午要去高雄.
10/23 3:03 PM. YM (12/21) (rev 1051023)
10/23 3:06 PM. 點起一支Peace
10/23 6:25 PM. s/p lousy traffic
10/24 9:21 AM. was notified just now that L was sent to ICU due to fever and leukopenia 10/22
10/24 4:54 PM. tired. take a break. till 6:00 PM.
10/24 11:33 PM. all quiet on the western front, at least, so far. four consults, tomorrow morning.
10/25 7:25 AM. well, this is day 2.
10/25.10:57 AM. one consult unfinished. ICU-21 transferred back 10/26. 走進陽光
10/25 4:42 PM. "我賺最多" "讓他演" "Welcome" "Of course, (you bitch)" 蘇清公公是一個傑出的吹簫演出家 屁眼們說 輕諾寡信 說得真好
10/25 7:00 PM. remembering kitaro koi. the violin interlude is very very beautiful.
10/26 6:08 PM. this is day 3. two MC case notes (done 7:01 PM). 社關案待評估是否可行 (forward to 正熙, consider asking him to take in charge of this project, 7:32 PM). case report awaits review (done 7:16 PM)
10/27 4:26 AM. day 4. 弦月 山頭
10/27 4:17 PM. just back.
10/27 8:43 PM. W agitated at H2, restraint, RT. titrating clozapine from tomorrow. (DC clozapine, sialorrhea much, 10/28)
10/29 9:12 AM. day 6. duty from 10 PM. not for weak or fainthearted.
10/29 10:47 PM. duty from 10 PM till 10/30 10 PM. ER one, 71 y/o, r/o delirium; H3 one, 70 y/o, manic.
10/30 1:19 AM. H3 new pt AAD. back to the office.
10/30 9:41 AM. ER not yet calling.
10/30 10:31 AM. 清楚穩穩做人 清楚包括看清想清
看清想清 包括台灣大陸 (taiwan watch, china watch) 李登輝留給台灣兩個禮物 一是黑金 一是宋楚瑜 前者培養了他自己和國民黨的吃相優雅 後者造成國民黨分裂 唯其分裂 民進黨才可能一次二次奪權 我先前說過 中共需要出現他們的李登輝 來把龐然巨獸從裡面搞爛 民主才能從中發生 但是看習近平幾年來佈局 這條路越來越不可能了 民進黨的尷尬不在陳水扁有本事亂搞 在陳水扁貪汙 這破壞了革命的integrity和正當性 以目前局勢看來 陳水扁必反撲 順便搞亂所有理性的可能的進程 如果大陸的痛苦在imposed deception和self-censorship 民進黨的痛苦則在吃相難看和self-deception 國民黨的痛苦則在宮廷政治腐敗 且由奢入儉難 不歸零不足以復興 所以顧立雄不知道 他正在做一件幫國民黨死去活來的事 以近一年的變化觀之 蔡英文應會用力做很多糟糕但振振有辭的事 女人玩政 搞了半天小動作和文雅的潑辣 就是演得不大像政治家 雖然台灣男性也沒有人演得好 基本上 這群傢伙 男女不論 皆演技欠佳 跑龍套 在第三世界 混口飯吃而已
10/30 2:43 PM. nine hours to go
10/30 4:39 PM. ER 邱 adm.
10/30 6:11 PM. virtual 白斬雞 for dinner, 所謂畫餅. 還有三小時到LA 轉機十小時
10/31 12:20 MN. windy. sleeping in the airport. waiting for dawn.
10/31 12:13 Noon. 有點急 這樣不好 我知道
10/31 10:18 PM. day 8, very busy. 5 consults, tomorrow morning. day by day. one day at a time.
11/1 6:49 AM. day 9. 邱 agitated, singing loudly, around 3-4 am. sleep for 1+ hr after haldol / anxicam 1/2 amp im, wake up just now, disturbing again. shall add risperidone 1 mg bid from today.
11/2 6:57 PM. 94 y/m, day 10. dementia with depression and BPSD, adm. 小鬼難纏. preview ppt tomorrow noon at 天成.
11/3 1:46 AM. 逐漸成形 原鄉 ordered two books from abebook (uneasy dwelling, daseiinsanalysis) ordered a kindle (mick cooper, 2e, existential therapies)
11/3 3:48 PM. day 11. back from 天成, Nobita 公文宿舍文將出, 11/4 PM 2:00 觀音演習無法派人出席.
11/4 7:46 AM. day 12. 我今天下午要去高雄.
The Seven Mile Journey - Templates for Mimesis (Full Album)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FQzmyvoI1TA
afraid that, still unable to enjoy these post-rocks, still unable to feel life there, though, paradoxically, which may be just the point of post-rock
Seiji Ozawa (小澤征爾) (b 1935)
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Seiji_Ozawa
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vjeBX9S8iMo
wonderful valley, wonderful afternoon
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vjeBX9S8iMo
wonderful valley, wonderful afternoon
打雀英雄傳 (2006)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IyMK5DORwAI
a happy one, rare these days, nor in those days.
a happy one, rare these days, nor in those days.
Saturday, October 22, 2016
back to june, 1979
Hear the Wind Sing (風の歌を聴け Kaze no uta o kike)
https://drive.google.com/file/d/0B5viXpvvYMYEU1dtX2hNNTJRaVE/view?usp=sharing
accessible via scribd
jack daniel
Being the best thing he knew about America, Jacques Lacan once said.
now, this is for real, isn't it
追酒關鍵是下墜的速度比如說加速度或慢速度墜落但我們都知道墜落是必然的指望漂浮起來是不可能的
Falcon Rising (2014)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pkpA6B1vYhw
the color, is great, in this one, due to Rio, must be
though, who says, that life, is not redundant
the color, is great, in this one, due to Rio, must be
though, who says, that life, is not redundant
2016-12-28 Lecture (DSM-5 in perspective)
https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/0B5viXpvvYMYEWldpQUo1dEtYWXM?usp=sharing
2016-12-26 Lecture (Psychological Models of Suicide)
https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/0B5viXpvvYMYEcF9yZElRbmx3VTg?usp=sharing
2016-11-28 Lecture (Phenomenology for Therapists) (Finlay 2011)
https://drive.google.com/file/d/0B5viXpvvYMYENFppNElQVE1acmc/view?usp=sharing
2016-10-31 Lecture (Davie Rennie)
https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/0B5viXpvvYMYEeFZPdzlqemQ5Rzg?usp=sharing
2016-11-17 Lecture (Ketamine and Other NMDA Antagonists: Early Clinical Trials and Possible Mechanisms in Depression) (Newport et al, 2015)
http://psychnews.psychiatryonline.org/doi/full/10.1176/appi.pn.2016.PP10b2
http://psychnews.psychiatryonline.org/doi/full/10.1176/appi.pn.2015.11b20
http://www.ketamineadvocacynetwork.org/
https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/0B5viXpvvYMYEcEhIaHFGQU5RMjg?usp=sharing
http://psychnews.psychiatryonline.org/doi/full/10.1176/appi.pn.2015.11b20
http://www.ketamineadvocacynetwork.org/
https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/0B5viXpvvYMYEcEhIaHFGQU5RMjg?usp=sharing
小黃瓜和番茄
送J去車站問她入行幾年的建築師才能談美學她說一般建案實用為主加上設計成本會增加很多又怕銷得不好所以沒有辦法想那麼抽象的事我說那公共建築呢她說那是有名的建築師玩的不用怕賠錢才玩得起一會到了車站她匆匆下車我跟都都說我們去買小黃瓜和番茄
2016-10-26 Lecture (Dementia Care)
https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/0B5viXpvvYMYES0llS0NCcElBVU0?usp=sharing
2016-12-3 SP (15)
https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/0B5viXpvvYMYEWHdSRUc0WGNxa2s?usp=sharing
rev 10/22, add 宋永毅, need to tighten it up, before 12/3
rev 10/22, add 宋永毅, need to tighten it up, before 12/3
Waking the Giant: How a changing climate triggers earthquakes, tsunamis, and volcanoes (Bill McGuire, 2012)
https://www.theguardian.com/world/2016/oct/16/climate-change-triggers-earthquakes-tsunamis-volcanoes
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xndhx7KpSU0
2016-12-21 YM
https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/0B5viXpvvYMYETVQ2RWhZeDVWazQ?usp=sharing
not yet merged, into one single ppt file, at most 50-60
here is the final draft, so far (2016-10-23)
https://drive.google.com/file/d/0B5viXpvvYMYEUEZsNTZLSGpqUmc/view?usp=sharing
not yet merged, into one single ppt file, at most 50-60
here is the final draft, so far (2016-10-23)
https://drive.google.com/file/d/0B5viXpvvYMYEUEZsNTZLSGpqUmc/view?usp=sharing
The Lancet Psychiatry
http://www.thelancet.com/journals/lanpsy/issue/current
https://drive.google.com/file/d/0B5viXpvvYMYERzBZdnRpSEpQVkE/view?usp=sharing
https://drive.google.com/file/d/0B5viXpvvYMYEVEhjZW11aWlpNjQ/view?usp=sharing
https://drive.google.com/file/d/0B5viXpvvYMYERzBZdnRpSEpQVkE/view?usp=sharing
https://drive.google.com/file/d/0B5viXpvvYMYEVEhjZW11aWlpNjQ/view?usp=sharing
Psychological Models of Suicide
https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/0B5viXpvvYMYEdFlaNTNLckYyVlU?usp=sharing
https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/0B5viXpvvYMYEaFBkeXR0Qy1obkk?usp=sharing
suicidal mind vs suicidal brain
Suicide: Phenomenology and Neurobiology, ed. by Keri E. Cannon, Thomas J. Hudzik, Springer, 2014
https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/0B5viXpvvYMYEaFBkeXR0Qy1obkk?usp=sharing
suicidal mind vs suicidal brain
Suicide: Phenomenology and Neurobiology, ed. by Keri E. Cannon, Thomas J. Hudzik, Springer, 2014
Friday, October 21, 2016
Lightnin' Hopkins - Cotton
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cFN9lebEvF0
now, this one is fucking beautifully elegiac
now, this one is fucking beautifully elegiac
Lightnin' Hopkins - Black Cat Blues
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hpQ6ih0R_zY
no doubt, this is the funny one
no doubt, this is the funny one
The Ravenous Brain: How the New Science of Consciousness Explains Our Insatiable Search for Meaning (Daniel Bor, 2012)
In The Ravenous Brain, neuroscientist Daniel Bor departs sharply from this historical view, and builds on the latest research to propose a new model for how consciousness works. Bor argues that this brain-based faculty evolved as an accelerated knowledge gathering tool. Consciousness is effectively an idea factory—that choice mental space dedicated to innovation, a key component of which is the discovery of deep structures within the contents of our awareness.
This model explains our brains’ ravenous appetite for information—and in particular, its constant search for patterns. Why, for instance, after all our physical needs have been met, do we recreationally solve crossword or Sudoku puzzles? Such behavior may appear biologically wasteful, but, according to Bor, this search for structure can yield immense evolutionary benefits—it led our ancestors to discover fire and farming, pushed modern society to forge ahead in science and technology, and guides each one of us to understand and control the world around us. But the sheer innovative power of human consciousness carries with it the heavy cost of mental fragility. Bor discusses the medical implications of his theory of consciousness, and what it means for the origins and treatment of psychiatric ailments, including attention-deficit disorder, schizophrenia, manic depression, and autism. All mental illnesses, he argues, can be reformulated as disorders of consciousness—a perspective that opens up new avenues of treatment for alleviating mental suffering. (amazon)
accessible via questia
http://new.jingzong.org/Item/2601.aspx
http://big5.xuefo.net/nr/article10/101374.html
六根六識六塵是生命所繫最好的和最糟的都來自於此比如說在廢院坐了五年我發現聽力變好
https://drive.google.com/file/d/0B5viXpvvYMYELU04SWE4X09SMUk/view?usp=sharing (2016-10-23)
Maurizio Pompili
1. Medical Conditions Associated with Suicide Risk, ed. by Alan B. Berman, Maurizio Pompili, American Association of Suicidology, 2011
2. Evidence-Based Practice in Suicidology, by Maurizio Pompili, Roberto Tatarelli, Hogrefe Publishing, 2010
3. Phenomenology of Suicide: Unlocking the Suicidal Mind, by Maurizio Pompili. Springer, June 9, 2017
2. Evidence-Based Practice in Suicidology, by Maurizio Pompili, Roberto Tatarelli, Hogrefe Publishing, 2010
3. Phenomenology of Suicide: Unlocking the Suicidal Mind, by Maurizio Pompili. Springer, June 9, 2017
This book will help the reader to understand the suicidal mind from a phenomenological point of view, shedding light on the feelings of suicidal individuals and also those of clinicians. In accordance with the importance that the phenomenological approach attaches to subjectivity and sense of self as the starting points for knowledge, emphasis is placed on the need for the clinician to focus on the subjective experiences of the at-risk individual, to set aside prior assumptions, judgments, or interpretations, and to identify ways of bridging gaps in communication associated with negative emotions. The vital importance of empathy is stressed, drawing attention to the insights offered by neuroimaging studies and the role of mirror neurons in social cognition. (amazon)
waiting, for this one, too
waiting, for this one, too
Third Contact (2012)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eReCk44GpW0
Psychotherapist David Wright runs a private practice in London but is struggling to motivate himself. Memories of lost love torment him, while Rene, a client, has committed suicide and David is now in such a state he considers following the same path. Meanwhile, another client also talks of suicide; but this is "quantum suicide" – a thought experiment which implies immortality for conscious beings. Rene's sister, Erika Maurer, finds his apartment is almost empty except for one cup, spoon, fork and knife, frames without pictures, a torn family photo and a list of memories – four dated descriptions of specific moments in his life. David meets Erika, as she seeks to understand his state of mind, and the two damaged souls look to each other for some kind of comfort. Another client, Helen, acting strangely, walks out of her session. But when he discovers Helen has met the same fate as Rene, leaving behind another mysterious list of memories, David is drawn into an obsessive investigation, determined to find out who or what is responsible before any more lives are lost. (wikipedia)
Katie-Jane Hall said it was difficult "to convey the sheer artistic brilliance and visual beauty that the work possesses". (The London Film Review, March 6, 2013)
now, the beauty lies in black and white, but not unexpectedly, they talk too much, thus therefore, this is a film, not to be watched, but, to be listened to, like blues
Psychotherapist David Wright runs a private practice in London but is struggling to motivate himself. Memories of lost love torment him, while Rene, a client, has committed suicide and David is now in such a state he considers following the same path. Meanwhile, another client also talks of suicide; but this is "quantum suicide" – a thought experiment which implies immortality for conscious beings. Rene's sister, Erika Maurer, finds his apartment is almost empty except for one cup, spoon, fork and knife, frames without pictures, a torn family photo and a list of memories – four dated descriptions of specific moments in his life. David meets Erika, as she seeks to understand his state of mind, and the two damaged souls look to each other for some kind of comfort. Another client, Helen, acting strangely, walks out of her session. But when he discovers Helen has met the same fate as Rene, leaving behind another mysterious list of memories, David is drawn into an obsessive investigation, determined to find out who or what is responsible before any more lives are lost. (wikipedia)
Katie-Jane Hall said it was difficult "to convey the sheer artistic brilliance and visual beauty that the work possesses". (The London Film Review, March 6, 2013)
now, the beauty lies in black and white, but not unexpectedly, they talk too much, thus therefore, this is a film, not to be watched, but, to be listened to, like blues
Thursday, October 20, 2016
Emily
"Okay, thank you, Emily," Reacher said. "It was nice to meet you. Have a great day."
"That's it?"
"What else is there?"
"Aren't you going to ask what a nice girl like me is doing in a job like this? Aren't you going to give me advice for the future?"
"No," Reacher said. "No one should listen to my advice. And you seem to be doing fine anyway. A thousand bucks an hour ain't bad. I know people who get screwed for twenty."
"Who?"
"People who wear uniforms, mostly." (Never Go Back, p. 280)
"That's it?"
"What else is there?"
"Aren't you going to ask what a nice girl like me is doing in a job like this? Aren't you going to give me advice for the future?"
"No," Reacher said. "No one should listen to my advice. And you seem to be doing fine anyway. A thousand bucks an hour ain't bad. I know people who get screwed for twenty."
"Who?"
"People who wear uniforms, mostly." (Never Go Back, p. 280)
Rhythms of the Brain
Rhythms of the Brain, by Gyorgy Buzsaki, Oxford University Press, 2011
Studies of mechanisms in the brain that allow complicated things to happen in a coordinated fashion have produced some of the most spectacular discoveries in neuroscience. This book provides eloquent support for the idea that spontaneous neuron activity, far from being mere noise, is actually the source of our cognitive abilities. It takes a fresh look at the coevolution of structure and function in the mammalian brain, illustrating how self-emerged oscillatory timing is the brain's fundamental organizer of neuronal information. The small-world-like connectivity of the cerebral cortex allows for global computation on multiple spatial and temporal scales. The perpetual interactions among the multiple network oscillators keep cortical systems in a highly sensitive "metastable" state and provide energy-efficient synchronizing mechanisms via weak links. (amazon)
The short punch line of this book is that brains are foretelling devices and their predictive powers emerge from the various rhythms they perpetually generate. At the same time, brain activity can be tuned to become an ideal observer of the environment, due to an organized system of rhythms. The specific physiological functions of brain rhythms vary from the obvious to the utterly impenetrable.
A simple but persuasive example is walking. Bipedal walking is a periodic series of forward falls interrupted regularly by alternate extensions of each leg. It is almost as natural to us as breathing. This effortless exercise is made possible by the predictive nature of spinal cord oscillators. On smooth terrain, the alternation of leg movements can take us any distance. Perturbation of the clocking, on the other hand, signals a change in the terrain. This general mechanism is the same in all animals, including eight-legged scorpions and centipedes.
The notion that oscillators or “central pattern generators” are responsible for the coordination of motor patterns, such as breathing and walking, is old and well accepted in neuroscience.
But the tantalizing conjecture that neuronal oscillators can be exploited for a plethora of other brain-generated functions, including cognition, is quite new and controversial. And it is the latter topic, the contribution of oscillations to the invisible, inferred operations of the brain, that this book is mostly about. (ibid, Prelude, pp. vii-viii)
Cycle 1. Introduction.
Cycle 2. Structure defines function.
Cycle 3. Diversity of cortical functions is provided by inhibition.
Cycle 4. Windows on the brain.
Cycle 5. A system of rhythms: from simple to complex dynamics.
Cycle 6. Synchronization by oscillation.
Cycle 7. The brain's default state: self-organized oscillations in rest and sleep.
Cycle 8. Perturbation of the default patterns by experience.
Cycle 9. The gamma buzz: gluing by oscillations in the waking brain.
Cycle 10. Perceptions and actions are brain state-dependent.
Cycle 11. Oscillations in the "other cortex:" navigation in real and memory space.
Cycle 12. Coupling of systems by oscillations.
Cycle 13. The tough problem.
https://drive.google.com/file/d/0B5viXpvvYMYERDQwcl92ZXlJdWM/view?usp=sharing
Wednesday, October 19, 2016
放牛吃草
(林茂榮 2005)
http://mawrong.myweb.hinet.net/2006-oil.html
放牛吃草非製造業非服務業屬畜牧業之高級動物輔助低級動物療法意思是說人以為是他帶牛吃草但其實是牛帶人回到自然看它吃草治療以年為單位每年收費一百元注意是人付給牛不是牛付給人一般短期療程十次吃十年草才可略見療效較嚴重個案需廿至卅次喪心病狂個案則需六十至八十次移動極慢窮而不忙牛有信心走失不了不須警覺自然放心昏昏睡去人牛皆然乍看遂常以為是惺忪的牛在守護睡夢的人
http://mawrong.myweb.hinet.net/2006-oil.html
放牛吃草非製造業非服務業屬畜牧業之高級動物輔助低級動物療法意思是說人以為是他帶牛吃草但其實是牛帶人回到自然看它吃草治療以年為單位每年收費一百元注意是人付給牛不是牛付給人一般短期療程十次吃十年草才可略見療效較嚴重個案需廿至卅次喪心病狂個案則需六十至八十次移動極慢窮而不忙牛有信心走失不了不須警覺自然放心昏昏睡去人牛皆然乍看遂常以為是惺忪的牛在守護睡夢的人
Robert B. Cialdini (b 1945)
Cialdini's theory of influence is based on six key principles: reciprocity, commitment and consistency, social proof, authority, liking, scarcity
Also published as the textbook Influence: Science and Practice (5ed, 2008)
accessible via scribd (first edition, 1984)
Pre-Suasion: A Revolutionary Way to Influence and Persuade, by Robert Cialdini, Simon & Schuster, Sep 6, 2016 (accessible via scribd from Sep 6, 2017)
His 1984 book, Influence: The Psychology of Persuasion, was based on three "undercover" years applying for and training at used car dealerships, fund-raising organizations, and telemarketing firms to observe real-life situations of persuasion. (https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Robert_Cialdini)
The trajectory of the Anthropocene: The Great Acceleration
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PJlEK6HJBk8
Oct 18, 3:58 AM
re-reading never go back, from 2 days ago, reacher has not yet escaped from fort dyer, with turner, playing his game of imaginary coin, the fourth one, now, missed a call, at 2:08 AM, unusual for me, shall go for a long ride, to the seaside, on business, after daylight, be back, in early afternoon, good qualitative research reports, are like good detective novels, e.g. what i know about new york city, came from lawrence block and matthew scudder; what i know about LA, came from michael connelly and harry bosch; and, of course, what i know about north dakota, came from lee child and jack reacherm and those fucking cold 61 hours; no, good novels, not only good detective novels; what i know about portugal, came from remarque and that last night in lisbon; what i know about spain, came from benjamin and portbou, robert bolano and barcelona and costa brava; now, the wind blows, intermittently, badly, need, a coffee; shall organize a program, for mild dementia day care, cannot stop its tragic trajectory, but may help to soothe the families, help them to better deal with the years ahead, in a more manageable and graceful way; now, if they are difficult, they are difficult for good reasons; i used to be there, you see; to live, one day, at a time; when it took gadamer 60 years to write truth and method, you'd know how difficult it is to say something, anything, about hermeneutics; 10/18, 7:06 PM, windy, 8:15 PM. moon, nearly full, coming out, of the hill. interesting things. always happen. at odd hours. the wise guys. used to. say.10/19 3:48 AM. yes, one, day, at, a. time. reacher and turner, on the way, in the stolen sports car, just arrived at a certain airport. D39, membership, renewed. i saw fatigue there yesterday, do i see fatigue here today.10/19 5:03 AM. well, they fucked, after all, and are talking now. (NGB, p. 190) 10/19 9:36 PM. they've just arrived at long beach. need a bath. apparently. this is a burnout thing. A.M. 3435. mystic code. usually number. forget about taiwan watch. nothing to watch. 10/20 4:30 PM. one day at a time. i know. take a break, as possible. i know. nowhere to (wish to) go. anyway.
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