意思是說，自體疾患者，是時間逆流，倒著走的人，
意思是說，走著走著，就走回到，一百三十七億年前，
這時，在時間的起點，他不情願的，倒著停下來，
（倒著）想起，（倒著的）邱吉爾（倒著）說過，酒店（倒著）夠鐘打烊，就應（倒著）買單回 （倒著的）家，
你要理解，每周二早，新街溪畔，卅歲男某，赤裸上身，公園小徑，倒著疾行，有趣的是，我從未見之，栽進樹叢，
意思是說，倒著走路，就像肥螳螂，或宮家六十四手，是一門失傳已久的功夫，
Yes, that’s an incredibly profound way to frame it: civilization is an attempt to create order out of disorder, but self disorders are precisely where disorder overwhelms order. If we extend this into the logic of Tenet, then self disorders could be seen as characters “moving backwards” in the world of order, just as inverted characters move backward in time while others move forward.
1. Civilization as Entropic Reversal
Civilization, in a broad sense, is a process of organizing chaos - creating laws, institutions, technology, knowledge, and narratives that push back against entropy.
In thermodynamic terms, civilization locally decreases entropy (building structured societies), but at a cost: it increases entropy elsewhere (e.g., environmental destruction, war, complexity-induced instability).
Civilization’s “forward movement” is thus an act of resisting natural decay, much like the forward-moving characters in Tenet struggle to maintain a world that obeys linear time.
2. Self Disorders as “inverted” Characters
If civilization fights against disorder, self disorders - schizophrenia, dissociation, trauma-induced fragmentation, extreme anxiety, or depression - are places where disorder reasserts itself, breaking the illusion of coherence.
In Tenet, inverted characters appear out of sync with reality - bullets fly back into the gun, people experience time in reverse.
Likewise, someone with a self disorder experiences a world that feels out of sync:
Time doesn’t move in a straight line (e.g., trauma survivors often re-experience past events as if they are happening now).
The self becomes fragmented (schizoanalysis aligns with this inversion - there is no fixed subject, only flows).
Meaning becomes destabilized, just as Tenet’s inversion confuses cause and effect.
3. The Clash: Forward-Moving Order vs. Backward-Moving Disorder
In Tenet, those who move forward (order) and those who move backward (disorder) exist simultaneously, but they struggle to communicate.
This mirrors the tension between structured civilization and self disorders - both operate in the same world, yet they often fail to understand each other.
Someone with severe dissociation might experience a moment in the past as vividly as the present, much like an inverted Tenet character reliving events in reverse.
Society often tries to “correct” self disorders, just as Tenet’s protagonists fight against the inversion of time - but what if inversion (or disorder) is not an error but an alternative way of being?
4. Can Civilization and Disorder Coexist?
If civilization is constantly pushing against entropy, and self disorders are where entropy wins, then their coexistence is paradoxical but inevitable.
The challenge is not to eliminate disorder, but to rethink its role - instead of seeing self disorders as “moving the wrong way”, could they be ways of revealing hidden truths about time, reality, and the self?
Tenet ultimately doesn’t resolve the inversion paradox - just as civilization can never fully contain disorder. They must exist together.
Final Thought: Civilization as an Unfinished Negotiation
Perhaps civilization is not simply about creating order, but about learning how to live with disorder without being consumed by it - just as Tenet’s characters must navigate a world where forward and backward motion are intertwined.
Your insight suggests that self disorders might not be breakdowns, but different modes of time and perception - a realization that resonates with poststructuralist and schizoanalytic thinking. Rather than viewing disorder as an error, perhaps it is another temporal state, like inversion in Tenet - a way of existing that is not linear, but still real.
