我今天下午要去高雄
其實今天下午我要去衛生局開會
精神分析的終點的可能性包括
年輕的時候去過崙背一晚
這是內在的還是外在的
我的意思是說終點在
精神分析是一個走鋼索(acrobatics)
但看著清晨的鏡子
所以精神分析的終點
是照完鏡子後去崙背
Wednesday, May 16, 2018
精神分析的終點
聽得見一根針掉在地上的聲音
的前提是沒有人為的聲音
包括藍調和大勘定和習近平的演講
這是反過來說的意思是說
我先前是這麼說的
我說你的心要粗要學習粗
否則你會細到只能細到
連一根針掉到地上的聲音都聽得見
纖細的聽覺神經元
坐在廢院良久
良久的定義是七年
聽見溝裡那條大蛇默唸大悲咒
當然也聽見樓上嘶吼牆上另一塊磚
5/16 3:44 AM
今夏席地而臥必須被蟲咬醒
這說明了生態完整的必要性
這是必要的也是必須的
老柯的關說和關說是氣魄的
關說是關起門來說的意思
這時他們爬出壕溝來到湖邊
七年的陰囊可以癢到甚麼地步你說
雷馬克在拂曉前安靜的西線想像著
The FCC Just Approved Wireless Electricity… And It’s About to Change Everything
https://pro.moneymappress.com/p/NVXELC39/LNVXU539/?iris=925438&src=&ad=bbart_mmp_b_051518&iris=925438&h=true
Click here to discover what this new technology is, and how it’s about to forever change your life.
Dear Reader,
A tiny Silicon Valley company just made an announcement that shocked the tech world…
They reported that they recently received FCC approval for a revolutionary new devicethat does something many people had previously thought impossible – something that, until now, only existed in science fiction.
a revolutionary new devicethat does something many people had previously thought impossible – something that, until now, only existed in science fiction.
But this new device is real, and it will blow your mind.
The Washington Times says the technology behind the device “will change the world on a scale hardly seen in human history.”
David Pogue, the award-winning tech journalist from Scientific American, says, “We’re looking at the future of technology.”
Even the famed scientist Stephen Hawking, the most brilliant mind of our generation, was so amazed by this technology he simply said, “It’s about to change your life.”
With the recent FCC approval, the manufacturing phase is about to begin.
recent FCC approval, the manufacturing phase is about to begin.
And because this device has the potential to be used in almost every home in America, the roll-out is expected to be massive.
According to Allied Market Research, the market for this technology could hit $37.2 billion in just the next few years alone.
And once this new technology gets incorporated into hotels, restaurants, airports, coffee shops, and even entire cities… it could be a trillion-dollar business.
In fact, China already has plans to introduce the technology into Shenzhen, a huge metropolis of 11 million people.
And because this device is the only one of its kind approved for sale by the FCC, the company that invented it stands to see astronomical growth in a very short period of time.
Click here to discover what this new technology is, and how it’s about to forever change your life.
To Your Success,
Mike Ward
Publisher, Money Morning
Publisher, Money Morning
Tuesday, May 15, 2018
Tristan Murail ~ L'esprit des dunes (1994)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZFncet5VHRs
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Tristan_Murail (b 1947)
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Tristan_Murail (b 1947)
Visual Test Could Help Predict Dementia Risk in Elders
Visual Association Test (VAT)
https://www.jwatch.org/fw114170/2018/05/15/visual-test-could-help-predict-dementia-risk-elders?query=pfwTOC&jwd=000013567342&jspc=P
http://www.annfammed.org/content/16/3/206
https://www.jwatch.org/fw114170/2018/05/15/visual-test-could-help-predict-dementia-risk-elders?query=pfwTOC&jwd=000013567342&jspc=P
http://www.annfammed.org/content/16/3/206
Δήμητρα Γαλάνη & Κωνσταντίνος Βήτα - Μια Ευχή
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=owdzv1fXqUg&list=RDowdzv1fXqUg&t=124
Jim Rogers Says Next Bear Market Will Be Worst in His Life
https://www.bloomberg.com/news/articles/2018-02-09/jim-rogers-says-next-bear-market-will-be-worst-in-his-lifetime (2018-2-9)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eq01lq25xHk
http://news.ltn.com.tw/news/business/breakingnews/2425421 (2018-5-14)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QXalc1mq2Wk
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eq01lq25xHk
http://news.ltn.com.tw/news/business/breakingnews/2425421 (2018-5-14)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QXalc1mq2Wk
都江堰
https://zh.wikipedia.org/wiki/%E9%83%BD%E6%B1%9F%E5%A0%B0
What Dujiangyan represents—both practically and metaphorically—is an alternative model of Chinese governance. It represents the possibility of constructing institutions that channel building pressures (whether hydrological or social), rather than leading them to accumulate dangerously. It is authentically Chinese. And it is also more stable. Despite being at the epicenter of the massive 2008 Wenchuan earthquake, Dujiangyan waterworks survived undamaged, with little flooding to nearby residents.3 In contrast, the Three Gorges Dam (and the weight of the water behind it) appears to actually itself be altering the seismic profile of the surrounding land, producing an upsurge in earthquakes and landslides.
All too often, China’s future is posed as a choice between “domestic” versus “foreign” models. It is not. Instead, the question for its leaders and citizens alike is, What version of “China” do they wish to pursue? The Three Gorges Dam or Dujiangyan?
Minzner, Carl. End of an Era: How China's Authoritarian Revival is Undermining Its Rise (pp. 194-195). Oxford University Press. Kindle edition.
What Dujiangyan represents—both practically and metaphorically—is an alternative model of Chinese governance. It represents the possibility of constructing institutions that channel building pressures (whether hydrological or social), rather than leading them to accumulate dangerously. It is authentically Chinese. And it is also more stable. Despite being at the epicenter of the massive 2008 Wenchuan earthquake, Dujiangyan waterworks survived undamaged, with little flooding to nearby residents.3 In contrast, the Three Gorges Dam (and the weight of the water behind it) appears to actually itself be altering the seismic profile of the surrounding land, producing an upsurge in earthquakes and landslides.
All too often, China’s future is posed as a choice between “domestic” versus “foreign” models. It is not. Instead, the question for its leaders and citizens alike is, What version of “China” do they wish to pursue? The Three Gorges Dam or Dujiangyan?
Minzner, Carl. End of an Era: How China's Authoritarian Revival is Undermining Its Rise (pp. 194-195). Oxford University Press. Kindle edition.
Monday, May 14, 2018
Why Experienced HIV/ID Doctors Leave Clinical Practice
https://blogs.jwatch.org/hiv-id-observations/index.php/experienced-hiv-id-doctors-leave-clinical-practice/2018/05/13/
Sunday, May 13, 2018
新疆生產建設兵團
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ay9FnKfLY04
https://zh.wikipedia.org/wiki/%E6%96%B0%E7%96%86%E7%94%9F%E4%BA%A7%E5%BB%BA%E8%AE%BE%E5%85%B5%E5%9B%A2
https://zh.wikipedia.org/wiki/%E6%96%B0%E7%96%86%E7%94%9F%E4%BA%A7%E5%BB%BA%E8%AE%BE%E5%85%B5%E5%9B%A2
中國的債務危機爆發了？債務違約連續爆雷
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KSRDJi7EQfk
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9jUv-s08yu4&t=101s
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9jUv-s08yu4&t=101s
no one will be watching you in China (Jason Bourne 2016)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gmTmtT5wWuA
蟻族鼠族
蟻族：大學畢業生聚居村實錄 廣西師範大學出版社 廉思 2009
http://m.sanmin.com.tw/product/index/000998768
http://epolhs.pixnet.net/blog/post/4487309-%E5%8C%97%E4%BA%AC%E8%9F%BB%E6%97%8F%E7%94%9F%E5%AD%98%E8%89%B1%E9%9B%A3-%E5%89%8D%E9%80%94%E6%B8%BA%E8%8C%AB
http://www.cna.com.tw/topic/newsworld/66-1/201512020004-1.aspx
https://inkrculture.news/Ant+tribe+in+china
https://www.teepr.com/104060/michaelhsieh/%E4%B8%AD%E5%9C%8B%E5%8C%97%E4%BA%AC%E7%9A%84%E5%9C%B0%E4%B8%8B%E6%B7%B1%E8%97%8F100%E8%90%AC%E7%9A%84%E9%BC%A0%E6%97%8F/
裸露的神經
這件事發生在第三十六小時
你知道甚麼叫做超時工作嗎
我見過一天接客一百二十四回的風塵女子
我知道甚麼叫做超時工作
當然她也知道
15 x 124 =
1860 ÷ 60 = 31 – 24 = 7
災難大師布萊德彼特教我們
要保護左前臂
要一直移動
不要偏安在屋裡
這樣倖存的機會最大
不過外國殭屍
不信停止呼吸這一套
而且他們跑得很快
不確定為什麼如此
五十萬年前
從非洲出發移動的
那幾十百個老祖宗
了解這個道理
當然這是事後
有點可惜
奧威爾的作品我最喜歡的是巴黎倫敦落魄記 (Down and Out in Paris and London 1933)
這說明了我跟他曾經一起洗過碗
雷馬克的作品我最喜歡的是漂流木 (Flotsam 1939)
這說明了我跟他曾經一起漂流
漂流和洗碗
是同一件事
奧威爾其實是個很會搞笑的傢伙
這點習近平和馬克思都不知道
有點可惜
Jason Bourne (2016)
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Jason_Bourne_(film)
this one (2016) is very good, but, apparently, he is getting old, after running for nearly twenty years, same fate for jack reacher, or harry bosch, and, of course, matthew scudder, long time ago
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Bourne_(film_series)
http://torontosun.com/2017/03/05/matt-damon-hints-jason-bourne-is-done-maybe-people-are-done-with-the-character/wcm/2c814056-8395-4f62-a88b-ed9a5d5f70d0
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xCl5BtloMy4 (2019 fan made)
this one (2016) is very good, but, apparently, he is getting old, after running for nearly twenty years, same fate for jack reacher, or harry bosch, and, of course, matthew scudder, long time ago
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Bourne_(film_series)
http://torontosun.com/2017/03/05/matt-damon-hints-jason-bourne-is-done-maybe-people-are-done-with-the-character/wcm/2c814056-8395-4f62-a88b-ed9a5d5f70d0
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xCl5BtloMy4 (2019 fan made)
酷暑
田野的可能性考驗
你的想像力的貧乏的程度
意思是說
任何支微細節都可以田野
比如說一條魚的田野
一個社團(包括黑社會政黨)的田野
一張信用卡的田野
一本書的田野
一包菸的田野
一個機構的田野
一座山的田野
一畝田的田野
一個池塘的田野
一個土地公廟的田野
一個廢院的田野
一個廢院的田野
Mingong (民工)
https://www.imdb.com/title/tt6329256/ (2016)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=25lWXTc6SyI (2016)
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mingong
see also
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UBKBYJhJz5o&list=PLWv6XoY0cQ3c4jKOLb9YEaWS84R8wh6b6
https://book.douban.com/subject/1309273/ (孫惠芬 2005)
https://www.economist.com/news/china/21741602-they-are-one-biggest-threats-countrys-social-stability-chinas-cities-young-people (2018-5-3)
https://www.babelio.com/livres/Saint-Paul-Le-peuple-des-rats/921965 (2016-11-5)
http://www.books.com.tw/products/0010785221 (低端人口：中國，是地下這幫鼠族撐起來的 2018-4-27)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=25lWXTc6SyI (2016)
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mingong
According to data from the National Bureau of Statistic of China (NBS), the number of mingong was about 269 million[1] in the end of 2013.
The hopes of the migrant workers are that they are able to live in modern houses and may work and live in simple, but healthy conditions, which are better than those they live in on the countryside. In reality, most mingong live in slums and don't have long term contracts. The growing number of workers must settle for exploitative wages, work without contracts and uncertain conditions. If they become unemployed, they have the choice between going back to the countryside or looking for a new job in another urban area.
These workers hardly have a chance to get themselves qualified or to build a new life.
see also
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UBKBYJhJz5o&list=PLWv6XoY0cQ3c4jKOLb9YEaWS84R8wh6b6
https://book.douban.com/subject/1309273/ (孫惠芬 2005)
https://www.economist.com/news/china/21741602-they-are-one-biggest-threats-countrys-social-stability-chinas-cities-young-people (2018-5-3)
https://www.babelio.com/livres/Saint-Paul-Le-peuple-des-rats/921965 (2016-11-5)
http://www.books.com.tw/products/0010785221 (低端人口：中國，是地下這幫鼠族撐起來的 2018-4-27)
Strangers in the City: Reconfigurations of Space, Power, and Social Networks Within China's Floating Population (Li Zhang 2002)
With rapid commercialization, a booming urban economy, and the relaxation of state migration policies, over 100 million peasants, known as China’s “floating population,” have streamed into large cities seeking employment and a better life. This massive flow of rural migrants directly challenges Chinese socialist modes of state control. This book traces the profound transformations of space, power relations, and social networks within a mobile population that has broken through the constraints of the government’s household registration system. The author explores this important social change through a detailed ethnographic account of the construction, destruction, and eventual reconstruction of the largest migrant community in Beijing. She focuses on the informal privatization of space and power in this community through analyzing the ways migrant leaders build their power base by controlling housing and market spaces and mobilizing social networks. The author argues that to gain a deeper understanding of recent Chinese social and political transformations, one must examine not only to what extent state power still dominates everyday social life, but also how the aims and methods of late socialist governance change under new social and economic conditions. In revealing the complexities and uncertainties of the shifting power and social relations in post-Mao China, this book challenges the common notion that sees recent changes as an inevitable move toward liberal capitalism and democracy.(amazon)
Greatest Rock N Roll Vietnam War Music - 60s and 70s Classic Rock Songs
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZIIqLNZoOV8
控制
控制表示掌控
世界逃不出你的手掌心
控制是一種慾望
操控生命的慾望
控制是一種恐懼
表示害怕失控
控制的方法學是
監測流程中的關鍵節點
控制是一種權力的意志的實踐
當然權力需要包裝需要收買也需要威嚇
包裝需要化妝師
收買並不複雜每樣東西包括人都有價錢
威嚇需要輸人不輸陣的分層負責的小弟
控制需要金主金源
因為開銷很大
控制是永續經營的志業
需要形上學加持
形上學通常透過裝神弄鬼落實
David Gogo This Is Man's World
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZVLEYerz5rc&index=5&list=RDHYaw_bcgVd4
Gabriel Tarde (1843-1904)
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Gabriel_Tarde
Among the concepts that Tarde initiated were the group mind (taken up and developed by Gustave Le Bon, and sometimes advanced to explain so-called herd behaviour or crowd psychology).
Among the concepts that Tarde initiated were the group mind (taken up and developed by Gustave Le Bon, and sometimes advanced to explain so-called herd behaviour or crowd psychology).
In Search of Paradise: Middle-Class Living in a Chinese Metropolis (Li Zhang 2010)
A new revolution in homeownership and living has been sweeping the booming cities of China. This time the main actors on the social stage are not peasants, migrants, or working-class proletariats but middle-class professionals and entrepreneurs in search of a private paradise in a society now dominated by consumerism. No longer seeking happiness and fulfillment through collective sacrifice and socialist ideals, they hope to find material comfort and social distinction in newly constructed gated communities. This quest for the good life is profoundly transforming the physical and social landscapes of urban China.
Li Zhang, who is from Kunming, the capital of Yunnan province, turns a keen ethnographic eye on her hometown. She combines her analysis of larger political and social issues with fine-grained details about the profound spatial, cultural, and political effects of the shift in the way Chinese urban residents live their lives and think about themselves. In Search of Paradise is a deeply informed account of how the rise of private homeownership is reconfiguring urban space, class subjects, gender selfhood, and ways of life in the reform era.
New, seemingly individualistic lifestyles mark a dramatic move away from yearning for a social utopia under Maoist socialism. Yet the privatization of property and urban living have engendered a simultaneous movement of public engagement among homeowners as they confront the encroaching power of the developers. This double movement of privatized living and public sphere activism, Zhang finds, is a distinctive feature of the cultural politics of the middle classes in contemporary China. Theoretically sophisticated and highly accessible, Zhang's account will appeal not only to those interested in China but also to anyone interested in spatial politics, middle-class culture, and postsocialist governing in a globalizing world. (amazon) (kindle 2018-5-13) (refund 2018-5-16)
now, the problem is, in 2018, this is not a post-socialist regime, but a full-blown-crony-capitalism-with-lingering-socialist-fast-deteriorating-back-to-hell-communist tyrannical regime, now, tell me, are you fucking SAFE in your fucking gated little fucking paradise? (2018-5-13)
作者選錯了城市 應該選一線城市才對
now, the problem is, in 2018, this is not a post-socialist regime, but a full-blown-crony-capitalism-with-lingering-socialist-fast-deteriorating-back-to-hell-communist tyrannical regime, now, tell me, are you fucking SAFE in your fucking gated little fucking paradise? (2018-5-13)
作者選錯了城市 應該選一線城市才對
Otis Taylor - "Blue Rain In Africa" from My World Is Gone
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FURz85xq5MQ
Why Does Everyone Hate Made in China 2025?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Eay33SVphQ0
https://www.cfr.org/blog/why-does-everyone-hate-made-china-2025
https://www.cfr.org/blog/why-does-everyone-hate-made-china-2025
Saturday, May 12, 2018
Blues Underground It's Been So Long
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HYaw_bcgVd4&list=RDHYaw_bcgVd4&t=22
Slow Blues/ Blues Ballads 1 - A two hour long compilation
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=14Zt5bjJKak&t=2865s
THE BEST OF MY FINGERSTYLE GUITAR ARRANGEMENTS - Volume 2
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IuOjkIZNeZY
天師鬥殭屍
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w-2yvr7pw0w&t=2153s
捨不得看完的成熟的殭屍片
我是說殭屍成熟王晶也成熟
而且鄭中基很重要也很成熟
當然元彪六十歲了太成熟了
捨不得看完的成熟的殭屍片
我是說殭屍成熟王晶也成熟
而且鄭中基很重要也很成熟
當然元彪六十歲了太成熟了
計畫
我內心計畫和Liu Xin進行一場洗碗工和蛋頭的爭辯
字裡行間我聽得出他對中共政權的過去的邪惡沒有幻想
但我也聽得出來他對中共政權的現在的邪惡視而不見
似乎那是必要的過程大家聽住
我們再犧牲幾億人幾代人就可以見到上帝和馬克斯和查理士布朗遜
和他們一起打麻將了
他說當今中國是全人類文明發展的一個症狀的瞬間(symptomatic
moment)
言下之意這個世界生病了中國在發燒
但發燒的中國恰恰代表西方世界走不出來的困局的答案
這符合中國特色社會主義的講法
他分析毛時代和後毛時代的差別
將之歸約為知識論上的斷裂(epistemological rupture)
好像當今中國沒有官出數據數據出官
沒有屏蔽沒有封網沒有網格式管理
一切都是透明地求真求善為人民服務
我越看越看不出他知道中共的歷史
除了讚嘆富麗堂皇的炮房
他的英文寫得很像英文句子很長很多子句很多逗點
還有進步的空間如果多加一些驚嘆號
我訂了kindle的兩本
The Mirage of China和Moralization
of China
但很可能幾天後退貨
人類學者對歷史政治社會居然可以無知至此
但又跨界表情很嚴肅地深邃論述
讓我警覺等一下一定要去大便和洗澡
或洗澡和大便
或同時做這兩件跟對內維穩和對外侵略一樣重要的事
這明顯是全人類文明發展的屬於我的一個症狀的瞬間
狼圖騰 (Wolf Totem) (姜戎 2005) (film 2015)
https://zh.wikipedia.org/wiki/%E5%A7%9C%E6%88%8E_(%E4%BD%9C%E5%AE%B6)
http://www.books.com.tw/products/0010279971
https://movie.douban.com/subject/3993588/
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=htggGbrX3qk
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iARqEFKQ2-I
http://www.bbc.com/zhongwen/trad/china/2015/02/150224_wolf_tuteng
https://cn.nytimes.com/film-tv/20150303/tc03jiangrong/zh-hant/
http://www.books.com.tw/products/0010279971
https://movie.douban.com/subject/3993588/
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=htggGbrX3qk
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iARqEFKQ2-I
http://www.bbc.com/zhongwen/trad/china/2015/02/150224_wolf_tuteng
https://cn.nytimes.com/film-tv/20150303/tc03jiangrong/zh-hant/
姜戎：草原，已經回不去了
蒙古族作家郭雪波表示，狼從來不是蒙古人圖騰，宣揚狼精神是反人類法西斯思想。我不確定姜戎(原名呂嘉民
b 1946)喜愛中共政權，但我相信這個老兄這麼孤狼愛狼，不會喜歡狼道這種歌頌鼓吹人吃人的玩意。至於老法拍的電影，要小心美化了文化大革命，這種事老法，和不記得昨天晚餐吃了甚麼的中國人最喜歡做。我先前說過，記得昨天晚餐吃了甚麼，你就是中國歷史學家。老法通常記得昨天晚餐吃了甚麼，而且對文革迫害一億人，整死兩千萬人很嚮往。嚮往是興奮到勃起高潮的意思。結果是中國人被迫害一億人，整死兩千萬人，每個人是受害者也是施害者，手上沾滿自己的和別人的鮮血，好不容易吃了一餐晚餐，卻喪失記憶也不敢回憶，然後看著法國人優雅地高潮，感到他媽的很羨慕。
前往內蒙古
呂嘉民早於學生時期首次引起當局負面的注意，在1964年因寫下一篇評論而被受到譴責並被打成「反革命者」，[3] 其父呂炳奎亦被紅衛兵認為他走資本主義路線並被紅衛兵打成右派，不過他之後仍決定加入紅衛兵。雖然他加入了紅衛兵，但當紅衛兵開始沒收「封資修」書籍並將其焚燒時，他經常將一些書收起，並加入其私人收藏。[5]1967年他高中畢業，並於11月16日[9] 應毛澤東「知識青年到農村去」的號召，自願與其他知青（包括劉小布及呂嘉民第一任妻子張紅軍）前往內蒙古錫林郭勒盟東烏珠穆沁旗草原插隊，與當地牧民生活，並居住在滿都寶力格牧場。[2] 他當初選擇前往遙遠的內蒙古而不選當時受歡迎的黑龍江插隊，是因為方便他帶著上述「封資修」書籍前往。他怕如果前往黑龍江的話，他將會必須住在解放軍生產建設兵團內，而且他帶來的書籍會有可能再被沒收。[10]
呂嘉民前往內蒙古後，生活不算安逸。雖然他在那裡成了公認的知青領袖，但後來被捲入滿都寶力格牧場的兩派鬥爭之內。[9]1969年，內蒙古生產建設兵團接管滿都寶力格牧場，加上周恩來早前的干預，兩派鬥爭遂告平息，不過呂嘉民在兩派鬥爭失去知青的信任並失去威信。[9]1970年9月30日，呂嘉民等三人因批鬥林彪而被軍人拘押，並承認犯下「反林彪副統帥的反革命罪行」，呂嘉平在弟弟的揭發之下亦受牽連。[9]1971年8月，呂嘉平及其妻被捕，呂嘉平被判死刑，其妻被判死緩，而呂嘉民自己則被繼續關押（此時其著作《狼圖騰》已開始腹稿[8]）。後來九一三事件發生，林彪政權垮台，他們才獲得特赦，呂嘉民則在幾個月後獲釋。[9]
獲釋後呂嘉民生活回復平靜，並被官方指定為「反林彪英雄」。[9]1975年，同為知青兼與呂嘉民同住一個蒙古包的張紅軍與呂嘉民結婚。但兩年後，呂嘉民以「在獄中遭毒打失去性功能」為由要求離婚。最後呂嘉民於1978年（一說1976年）返回北京。[9]
寫作《狼圖騰》
自1978年返回北京後，呂嘉民開始參加北京之春運動，並加入《北京之春》雜誌任總編輯。[5] 其後，他考上了中國社會科學院馬克思列寧主義毛澤東思想研究所（馬列所）研究生院，並與知名指揮家李德倫外甥女、同是《北京之春》編輯及滿都寶力格牧場知青的德方結婚，六年後離婚，與女作家張抗抗再婚。[9]呂嘉民研究生畢業後進入中國工運學院（今中國勞動關係學院）任副教授。後來六四事件爆發，呂嘉民因參加學運第二次被捕，至1991年1月始被釋放，不過副教授的職位自此不保，他不能持護照出境，亦不肯公開露面。[2][11][12][13] 此後他利用時間繼續寫作《狼圖騰》，並於1997年在北京完成初稿，至2003年底定稿，翌年4月交由長江文藝出版社出版。[8] 其妻在丈夫寫作之時發現他行為怪異，曾表示當時他「總是把自己關在書房裡，也從來不告訴別人，他究竟在幹甚麼」。[2][14]
近況
雖然他已經開始接受中國境內外傳媒作訪問，但至今仍婉拒提供其照片。另外，呂嘉民在出版《狼圖騰》早期對真實身份密而不宣，即使中華人民共和國公安部知道了，他當時亦不肯透露。在2006年之時，知道他真實身份的包括其妻及一位德國《明鏡周刊》駐華記者在內只有五人。[2][14] 直到2007年11月，他的真實身份在其獲得曼氏亞洲文學獎（Man Asian Literary Prize）才為人所知，他遞交給裁判團的相片及其真實名字亦被公開並刊登在世界各地的報紙上。[5][15]不過，他因為仍不能持護照出境，所以他最終未能赴香港獲獎。[1]
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