Abjection

https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Abjection

Powers of Horror: An Essay on Abjection (French: Pouvoirs de l'horreur. Essai sur l'abjection) is a 1980 book by Julia Kristeva.

https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Powers_of_Horror

showing no pride or respect for yourself

卑躬屈膝的；下賤的；奴性的；

From Abjection to Narcissism, and back again

https://telquel.wordpress.com/2005/07/12/from-abjection-to-narcissism-and-back-again/