Tuesday, June 5, 2018

SRGAP2

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/SRGAP2

SLIT-ROBO Rho GTPase-activating protein 2 (srGAP2) also known as formin-binding protein 2 (FNBP2) is a protein that in humans is encoded by the SRGAP2 gene.^[5]^[6]

SRGAP2 is involved in neuronal migration and neuronal differentiation.^[7] SRGAP2 also plays a critical role in synaptic development.^[8]

This gene is one of the 23 genes that are duplicated in humans but not in other primates.^[9]

This protein in humans has been duplicated three times in the human genome in the past 3.4 million years: one duplication 3.4 million years ago (mya) called SRGAP2B, a second duplication 2.4 mya (called SRGAP2C), and one final duplication ~1 mya (SRGAP2D). The ancestral gene SRGAP2 is found in all mammals and the human copy has been renamed SRGAP2A. The 2.4 million year-old duplication (SRGAP2C) expresses a shortened version that 100% of humans possess.^[10] This shortened version SRGAP2C inhibits the function of the ancestral copy SRGAP2A and (1) allows faster migration of neurons by interfering with filopodia production and (2) slows the rate of synaptic maturation and increases the density of synapses in the cerebral cortex.^[8]

The Persistence of the Self over Time in Mild Cognitive Impairment and Alzheimer's Disease (2018-2-20)

https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/29515473

Abstract

Diachronic unity is the belief that, despite changes, we are the same person across the lifespan. We propose that diachronic unity is supported by the experience of remembering the self over time during episodic recall (i.e., phenomenological continuity). However, we also predict that diachronic unity is also possible when episodic memory is impaired, as long as the ability to construct life narratives from semantic memory (i.e., semantic continuity) is intact. To examine this prediction, we investigated diachronic unity in Alzheimer's Disease (AD) and amnestic mild cognitive impairment (aMCI), two conditions characterised by disrupted phenomenological continuity. If semantic continuity is also altered in these conditions, there should be an associated deterioration in diachronic unity. Participants with AD, aMCI, and healthy controls (HC) completed a self-persistence interview measuring diachronic unity (beliefs about self-persistence, explanations for stability/change). Semantic continuity was assessed with a life-story interview measuring autobiographical reasoning (self-event connections), and coherence (temporal/thematic/causal) of narratives. Our results highlight a complex relationship between semantic continuity and diachronic unity and revealed a divergence between two aspects of diachronic unity: AD/aMCI groups did not differ from HC in continuity beliefs, but AD explanations for self-persistence were less sophisticated. Semantic continuity was most impaired in AD: their narratives had fewer self-event connections (vs. HCs) and lower temporal/thematic coherence (vs. HC/aMCI), while both AD/aMCI groups had lower causal coherence. Paradoxically AD participants who scored higher on measures of beliefs in the persistence of the core self, provided less sophisticated explanations for their self-persistence and were less able to explore persistence in their life narratives. These findings support the importance of semantic continuity to diachronic unity, but suggest a more nuanced and multifaceted relationship than originally proposed in our model. In AD, diminished life narratives that retain features of cultural life scripts are sufficient for strong subjective beliefs of self-persistence, but not for sophisticated explanations about persistence. Better semantic continuity, with the ability to weave high-quality life narratives, may scaffold the capacity to understand and explain one's diachronic unity, but this produces less surety about self-persistence.

autonoetic consciousness

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Autonoetic_consciousness

see also

https://www.tandfonline.com/doi/abs/10.1080/15298860801961927

http://www.columbia.edu/cu/psychology/metcalfe/PDFs/Metcalfe&Son_Autonoetic.pdf

https://www.sciencedirect.com/topics/neuroscience/autonoetic-consciousness

Endel Tulving (b 1927)

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Endel_Tulving

evolutionary developmental biology (evo-devo)

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Evolutionary_developmental_biology

death row (2006)

https://www.imdb.com/title/tt0790806/

Psychoanalysis and the Birth of the Self: A Radical Interdisciplinary Approach (Mark Leffert 2018-5-31)

This book draws psychoanalysis out of unsubstantiated, hermeneutic speculation and into the science and philosophy of the Self. Mark Leffert offers a survey of where we as human beings come from, going back into prehistory and our development as individuals. Psychoanalysis and the Birth of the Self is written to provide psychoanalysts with interdisciplinary information drawn from fields that they may have had little access to.

Leffert undertakes a novel integration of topics not frequently discussed together, resulting in a radical critique of the theorization of psychoanalysis. The book begins by setting the story with a short analysis of the history of psychoanalysis. A new science has been founded on the recognition of the impossibility of separating evolution from development; it is called Evo-Devo. Applied to the human condition, it integrates development with palaeoanthropology and forms the basis for exploring such topics as the neurophilosophy of consciousness, the birth of the Self, and its neurodevelopment. It includes epigenetics in the conversation. Leffert then takes a radical turn, integrating the biological Evo-Devo of the Self with the study of its Existence that is, Existentialism and Phenomenology. The integration of these two threads, Evo-Devo and Existentialism offers a powerful and unique tool for exploring the Self. The author offers an innovative way of understanding an individual that pulls together their biology, their development, and the way they choose to exist in the world. It steps outside of the traditional ways of clinically understanding an individual not by abandoning them but rather by powerfully supplementing them.

Psychoanalysis and the Birth of the Self offers a novel, interdisciplinary braiding of disparate strands of knowledge that will be of interest to psychoanalysts as well as those in the disciplines of neuroscience, existentialism and phenomenology, and anthropology. (amazon) (kindle 2018-6-5)

振奋！六四追轧学生队伍坦克二炮手被追查出来了！

http://www.aboluowang.com/2018/0605/1124861.html

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k-TsrBVAilQ

河南老兵抗議規模擴大集結逾萬人

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_t0bUIMybk0

Ludwig van Beethoven - String Quartet (1977)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rmQGgCAwgiE&list=PLAuaZen6ji_qmJx7FisKgp8QARmb7rvKo

self defeating

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Self-defeating_personality_disorder

Subtle Suicide: Our Silent Epidemic of Ambivalence About Living, by Michael A. Church, Charles I. Brooks, Praeger Pub Text, 2009

https://www.responsiblegambling.org/docs/default-source/Discovery-2017/disc2017-willpower-roy_baumeister.pdf?sfvrsn=2

https://www.scientificamerican.com/article/6-reasons-why-we-self-sabotage/

https://www.nytimes.com/2010/03/23/health/23mind.html

http://www.cspponline.org/event-2165647

https://derner.adelphi.edu/au_news/masochism-revisited-nancy-mcwilliams-on-self-defeating-patterns/

http://www.sakkyndig.com/psykologi/artvit/cooper2009.pdf

https://www.tandfonline.com/doi/abs/10.1080/15228870903200327?src=recsys&journalCode=wpsw20

https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/evolution-the-self/201102/self-sabotage-passive-aggression-toward-the-self-pt-55

https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/straight-talk/201804/psychoanalysis-today

互為主體是解放唯一之途

Why is intersubjectivity emancipatory? Because it emancipates us from transference, and thus countertransference.

马化腾刘强东

https://bowenpress.com/news/bowen_194939.html

范冰冰

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yTRyAUHzL1M

吳祚來專欄：中共的大外宣，意在控制海外話語制空權 (2017-4-7)

http://www.storm.mg/article/243868

see also

https://udn.com/news/story/7331/3157746 (2018-4-23)

China's Sharp and Soft Power (2018-5-31)

https://www.stimson.org/content/chinas-sharp-and-soft-power-0

六四事件29周年中共更加强力打压天安门母亲群体128位难属向习近平发出公开信习的反应居然是 ...

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_v7a-z5ng_w

河南漯河军嫂受辱引发全国老兵声援围困警察

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aBwYbFf2b9Q

中國经济問題都指向政改，高层理念与民眾需求衝突（《財經全觀察》第61期）

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q7TBBP9CYmo

Monday, June 4, 2018

严家祺：悼念“六四”二十九周年我们应该做的三件事

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-xf9Lmf0QRM

六四周年祭：封杀回避能让人遗忘吗？

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A3r6soq1L74

鮑彤再看六四（三）：假如趙紫陽沒有下台

https://cn.nytimes.com/china/20180604/bao-tong-talks-89-li-nanyang-part3/zh-hant/

29周年，习近平不敢碰触这个话题，因为缺乏四个自信

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6gQxRavwA-g

Cosmos Blues - V/A (HQ)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h7GG5THQlxc

一位普通六四参与者写给自己的一封信

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z3v2OyTFGXs

remaining ways to be critical (2018-6-4)

https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/1yiHDcZ2HkYbkr23SI3YbLO589Y333uSB?usp=sharing

這時黑夜的殺戮已經結束

昨晚停在Paul Klee的新天使

關於批判還是老實集中在

法蘭克福學派的Adorno和Benjamin

兩個絕望的人

教你怎麼絕望

所以我們知道

批判必須絕望

看著六四的朝陽

今天繼續值班

China Plans To Roll Out Social Credit System By 2020 (2017-10-30)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AztK31oa6zg

惊心动魄！中国的房地产如此过剩 (2018-3-28)

http://news.creaders.net/china/2018/03/28/1937918.html

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f_xYycAPUz8&t=187s

【中国热评】纪念八九六四：革命还是改良？

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=be705jyyIlk

鮑彤與鄧小平六四政變（中國資深傳媒人　呂月）

https://hk.news.appledaily.com/local/daily/article/20180604/20410275

鮑彤再看六四（二）：我是如何被抓進秦城的

https://cn.nytimes.com/china/20180530/bao-tong-talks-89-li-nanyang-part2/zh-hant/

鮑彤再看六四（一）：鄧小平的一場政變？

https://www.upmedia.mg/news_info.php?SerialNo=41837

张林“八九民运与专制文化”（系列节目）第一集悲怆：我和“八九”民主运动

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RyOun0qdnRc

张林“八九民运与专制文化”（系列节目）第二集苦难：中国民主化转型与牲口社会

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_Sa5sLDTSjw&t=42s

张林“八九民运与专制文化”（系列节目）第三集幻灭：抽鞭子与共产主义乌托邦

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PAgtOACToDM

张林“八九民运与专制文化”（系列节目）第四集无奈：赵紫阳不可能像叶利钦振臂一呼

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EAyKvWGmyXI

张林“八九民运与专制文化”（系列节目）第五集希望：中国人走出牲口棚

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ETOPlf_CGs8

六四事件中令赵紫阳遗憾终身的决策，未来变局中会出现赵紫阳第二？

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ixV8UYb7JnA

Sunday, June 3, 2018

六四事件29周年华盛顿烛光纪念会全程直播

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7pIechIcYG8

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_KNmh4TeJ9c

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VFG9VS7P63o

从清华到秦城：被“六四”改写的人生

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LklcFmcoHFk

Time International of The Children in The School of The Magazine

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cHHqSvzhEmY&t=3468s

六四前夕北京防變封敏感地鐵站出口

https://udn.com/news/story/7331/3177492

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=axlvUb-GlfA

印鈔的「爛尾時刻」：錢沒了房沒了媳婦也跑了

https://www.secretchina.com/news/b5/2018/06/02/860429.html

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=371_ze6zyOw

「六四」29週年：主動遺忘還是被動選擇困在政治與金錢之間的中國年輕人們

http://www.bbc.com/zhongwen/trad/chinese-news-44328958

【書齋夜話】之86：“毋忘六四”是做人的底线

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-i_MYEviH6w

Developments in Qualitative Psychotherapy Research (ed Del Loewenthal, Evrinomy Avdi 2018-9-7)

This book was originally published as a special issue of the European Journal of Psychotherapy & Counselling.

开发商的高危期来了！三个月后一切将水落石出

http://search.westca.com/News/view/id=3131711/%E5%BC%80%E5%8F%91%E5%95%86%E7%9A%84%E9%AB%98%E5%8D%B1%E6%9C%9F%E6%9D%A5%E4%BA%86%EF%BC%81%E4%B8%89%E4%B8%AA%E6%9C%88%E5%90%8E_%E4%B8%80%E5%88%87%E5%B0%86%E6%B0%B4%E8%90%BD%E7%9F%B3%E5%87%BA/lang=schinese.html

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_5wWT_hDbYY

中国30年罕见大变局这些行业或受重创

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JBBGNcunLpU

http://news.hexun.com/2018-05-24/193077498.html

吴小晖上诉

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KgdAuujbSzc

Saturday, June 2, 2018

The School of Life

https://www.youtube.com/user/schooloflifechannel?annotation_id=annotation_2275052633&feature=iv&src_vid=l_JOM-sVbKI

宝成集团

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ylcj43YIKQM

一帶一路

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3mrGbDzDbuI

The Be Good Tanyas - Junkie Song

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lHBWgC8Xm2s&list=PL5sjwwmkgg-LVvh4QRBmYDxi4qS2G4UCp&index=10

the be good tanyas (2000-2012)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mTV9EZN1miQ&list=PL5sjwwmkgg-LVvh4QRBmYDxi4qS2G4UCp

almost, happy, to see 'em singing

褐黃色的冰糖

look, man, you have no idea,
how crazy i am, they,
are going to Costco

now, play, waiting around
to die, fifty times,
then, maybe, you'll know

Partisan (2015)

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Partisan_(film)

The Be Good Tanyas - Waiting Around to Die

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-0SmXVrLlZ4

Sometimes i don't know where this
Dirty road is taking me
Sometimes i don't know the reason why
So i guess i'll keep gamblin'
Lots of booze and lots of ramblin'
It's easier than just waitin' around to die
Well one-time friends i had a ma
I even had a pa
He beat her with a belt once cause she cried
She told him to take care of me
She headed down to tennessee
It's easier than just a-waitin' around to die

I came of age and found a girl
In tuscaloosa bar
She cleaned me out and she hit on the sly
Well i tried to kill the pain
I bought some wine i hopped a train
Seemed easier than just waitin' around to die

Then a friend said he knew where
Some easy money was
We robbed a man and brother did we fly
But the posse caught up with me
Drug me back to muskogee
Now it's two long years, waitin' around to die

Now i'm out of prison
I got me a friend at last
He don't steal or cheat or drink or lie
His name is codeine
And he's the nicest thing i've seen
And together we're gonna wait around to die

秦晖解释中国传统治国之道

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rBuH62NsMaA

残忍的提问：中国的钱都到哪里去了？

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bdcNzN6NpKE

歐盟在世貿組織起訴中共

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rpMZG43CeKg

失聯的好兄弟

我有一個失聯的好兄弟舞鶴在淡水茶室一別後三十年不知所蹤

這時已經入夏聽說姚文智要發三千元給單身漢打炮這件事很重要

我是說不知所蹤很重要這是傳燈錄和宋明理學的最高境界

境界你知道是甚麼罷就是放在你床底下的用過的那件寶貝

這件事說明歷史的書寫是不可能的黏膩任務

所以你以為的歷史是偉人們出恭剔牙勃起癱軟的行事曆這幾件事你有經驗罷意思是說你連續幾千年記錄下來這幾件事你就是歷史學家假如你真有本事在這幾件事裡找到哲學你就是歷史哲學家假如你本事更大在這幾件事裡能找到精神分析你就是歷史的精神分析學家假如你以上都不是恭喜你你就是正常的台灣人或中國人

失落的環節

這件事發生在過去兩周我結束了替婊子和屁眼做功德的歲月每天在頂樓澆水我記得起先是傅柯在比傅柯多活的那無用的十年讀傅柯和傅柯承載不住六十歲後的我(2018-5-24)但這表示這件事在5/24之前幾天已經發生接下來的事順序是這樣的

Saturday, May 26, 2018

在比傅柯多活的那無用的十年讀傅柯和傅柯承載不住六十歲後的我

https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/1EFcETcgr0ArYnc64oTmRIUtaLeDvrrt3?usp=sharing

Sunday, May 27, 2018

傅柯還好吧

老古傅柯還好吧

文西有問題

老古傅柯有問題

文西像一隻屁股著火的兔子亂竄

老古(回首看看自己的屁股)(放下心)聽起來像我

文西(看著老古的屁股)(不耐煩)你今天還沒有著火

老古傅柯的問題在哪裡

文西他不能講倫理學

老古但他能講主體性

文西他的主體性是性和性慾的身體的主體性

老古聽起來像精神分析古典理論

文西所以他說「Freudian will be fine」

老古他的貢獻是episteme / discourse / power

文西他的方法是拼命看書筆記 / 考古學 / 系譜學

老古但他的語境是歐陸

文西所以他完全不懂中國

老古雖然他喜歡穿日本和服

文西他甚至不懂列寧斯大林

老古簡單講一個法國小布爾喬亞

文西一輩子沒有逃難沒有放逐沒有流亡沒有洗碗

老古雖然他喜歡去瑞典摩洛哥舊金山東京

文西他明顯不喜歡華沙

老古好吧那你為什麼讀他

文西因為我想知道下一個十年

老古結果呢

文西還是不知道

老古他不能當榜樣

文西他有他的玩法

老古你有你的玩法

文西不管如何他玩得蠻盡興

Wednesday, May 30, 2018

六月是尼采的

六月入監正宜尼采ubermensch in uberjail

Thursday, May 31, 2018

今夜雨來

選對會的「對」是一個哲學系統的縮寫這件事尼采在beyond good and evil裡曾詳細闡述

我知道尼采很重要因為幾乎每個有頭有臉的二十世紀乃至二十一世紀的人都宣稱是他的學生

我沒頭沒臉所以我不是他的學生但我很欣賞他可以十八天寫出on the genealogy of morals

這件事情說明生命爆發力和adrenaline rush的重要意思是說平時要注意營養才可以冒險十八天

我剛剛吃了二十個水餃和一包雲林青菜所以營養是沒有問題的現在就差冒險了

Thursday, May 31, 2018

nietzsche and psychoanalysis

Nietzsche's Presence in Freud's Life and Thought: On the Origins of a Psychology of Dynamic Unconscious Mental Functioning, by Ronald Lehrer, State University of New York Press, 1994

Nietzsche and Psychoanalysis, by Daniel Chapelle, State University of New York Press, 1993

our “nature” too is nothing until a character is chosen

Introducing Nietzsche: A Graphic Guide, by Laurence Gane, Piero, Icon Books Ltd, 2014 (p. 255/299)

但這仍然無法解釋為什麼跳到批判理論這是昨天和今天的事

https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/1yiHDcZ2HkYbkr23SI3YbLO589Y333uSB?usp=sharing

大马政坛风云突变玄机何在？中国民运若能借鉴必成大功！

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rVsKR_U03Xk&t=134s

李若谷：不要过分神化金融科技，要善于发现风险点 (2018-5-17)

https://news.p2peye.com/article-513976-1.html

李若谷：违约潮来袭，中国会出现债务危机吗？ (2018-5-27)

http://www.sohu.com/a/233085001_558682

李若谷：美国对中国的看法已发生根本性变化 (2018-5-27)

http://bschool.hexun.com/2018-05-27/193088407.html

夏业良：中美贸易战为何狼烟再起中国会联手欧盟对抗美国吗？

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yQjrSTut9VE

张培祥

http://tieba.baidu.com/p/1930601922

http://www.wenxuecity.com/news/2018/05/30/7296315.html

http://www.guancha.cn/society/2018_06_01_458603.shtml

http://opinion.cctv.com/2018/05/30/ARTIyQNhB884XqQsbMbT0EZm180530.shtml

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k2pZ1UKPoHw

http://blog.renren.com/share/258330801/18096687487 (賣米)

天刚蒙蒙亮，母亲就把我叫起来了：“琼宝，今天是这里的场，我们担点米到场上卖了，好弄点钱给你爹买药。”
　　我迷迷糊糊睁开双眼，看看窗外，日头还没出来呢。我实在太困，又在床上赖了一会儿。
　　隔壁传来父亲的咳嗽声，母亲在厨房忙活着，饭菜的香气混合着淡淡的油烟味飘过来，慢慢驱散了我的睡意。我坐起来，穿好衣服，开始铺床。
　　“姐，我也跟你们一起去赶场好不好？你买冰棍给我吃！”
　　弟弟顶着一头睡得乱蓬蓬的头发跑到我房里来。
　　“毅宝，你不能去，你留在家里放水。”隔壁传来父亲的声音，夹杂着几声咳嗽。
　　弟弟有些不情愿地冲隔壁说：“爹，天气这么热，你自己昨天才中了暑，今天又叫我去，就不怕我也中暑！”
　　“人怕热，庄稼不怕？都不去放水，地都干了，禾都死了，一家人喝西北风去？”父亲一动气，咳嗽得越发厉害了。弟弟冲我吐吐舌头，扮了个鬼脸，就到父亲房里去了。只听见父亲开始叮嘱他怎么放水，去哪个塘里引水，先放哪丘田，哪几个地方要格外留神别人来截水，等等。
　　吃过饭，弟弟就找着父亲常用的那把锄头出去了。我和母亲开始往谷箩里装米，装完后先称了一下，一担八十多斤，一担六十多斤。
　　我说：“妈，我挑重的那担吧。”
　　“你学生妹子，肩膀嫩，还是我来。”
　　母亲说着，一弯腰，把那担重的挑起来了。
　　我挑起那担轻的，跟着母亲出了门。
　　“路上小心点！咱们家的米好，别便宜卖了！”父亲披着衣服站在门口嘱咐道。
　　“知道了。你快回床上躺着吧。”母亲艰难地把头从扁担旁边扭过来，吩咐道，“饭菜在锅里，中午你叫毅宝热一下吃！”
　　赶场的地方离我家大约有四里路，我和母亲挑着米，在窄窄的田间小路上走走停停，足足走了一个钟头才到。场上的人已经不少了，我们赶紧找了一块空地，把担子放下来，把扁担放在地上，两个人坐在扁担上，拿草帽扇着。一大早就这么热，中午就更不得了，我不由得替弟弟担心起来。他去放水，是要在外头晒上一整天的。
　　我往四周看了看，发现场上有许多人卖米，莫非他们都等着用钱？场上的人大都眼熟，都是附近十里八里的乡亲，人家也是种田的，谁会来买米呢？
　　我问母亲，母亲说：“有专门的米贩子会来收米的。他们开了车到乡下来赶场，收了米，拉到城里去卖，能挣好些哩。”
　　我说：“凭什么都给他们挣？我们也拉到城里去卖好了！”其实自己也知道不过是气话。
　　果然，母亲说：“咱们这么一点米，又没车，真弄到城里去卖，挣的钱还不够路费呢！早先你爹身体好的时候，自己挑着一百来斤米进城去卖，隔几天去一趟，倒比较划算一点。”
　　我不由心里一紧，心疼起父亲来。从家里到城里足足有三十多里山路呢，他挑着那么重的担子走着去，该多么辛苦！就为了多挣那几个钱，把人累成这样，多不值啊！
　　但又有什么办法呢？家里除了种地，也没别的收入，不卖米，拿什么钱供我和弟弟上学？
　　我想着这些，心里一阵阵难过起来。看看旁边的母亲，头发有些斑白了，黑黝黝的脸上爬上了好多皱纹，脑门上密密麻麻都是汗珠，眼睛有些红肿。
　　“妈，你喝点水。”
　　我把水壶递过去，拿草帽替她扇着。
　　米贩子们终于开着车来了。他们四处看着卖米的人，走过去仔细看米的成色，还把手插进米里，抓上一把米细看。
　　“一块零五。”
　　米贩子开价了。卖米的似乎嫌太低，想讨价还价。
　　“不还价，一口价，爱卖不卖！”
　　米贩子态度很强硬，毕竟，满场都是卖米的人，只有他们是买家，不趁机压价，更待何时？

母亲注意着那边的情形说：“一块零五？也太便宜了。上场还卖到一块一呢。”
　　正说着，有个米贩子朝我们这边走过来了。他把手插进大米里，抓了一把出来，迎着阳光细看着。
　　“这米好咧！又白又匀净，又筛得干净，一点沙子也没有！”
　　母亲堆着笑，语气里有几分自豪。的确，我家的米比场上其他人卖的米都好。
　　那人点了点头，说：“米是好米，不过这几天城里跌价，再好的米也卖不出好价钱来。一块零五，卖不卖？”
　　母亲摇摇头：“这也太便宜了吧？上场还卖一块一呢。再说，你是识货的，一分钱一分货，我这米肯定好过别家的！”
　　那人又看了看米，犹豫了一下，说：“本来都是一口价，不许还的，看你们家米好，我加点，一块零八，怎么样？”
　　母亲还是摇头：“不行，我们家这米，少说也要卖到一块一。你再加点？”
　　那人冷笑一声，说：“今天肯定卖不出一块一的行情，我出一块零八你不卖，等会散场的时候你一块零五都卖不出去！”
　　“卖不出去，我们再担回家！”那人的态度激恼了母亲。
　　“那你就等着担回家吧。”那人冷笑着，丢下这句话走了。
　　我在旁边听着，心里算着：一块零八到一块一，每斤才差两分钱。这里一共150斤米，总共也就三块钱的事情，路这么远，何必再挑回去呢？我的肩膀还在痛呢。
　　我轻轻对母亲说：“妈，一块零八就一块零八吧，反正也就三块钱的事。再说，还等着钱给爹买药呢。”
　　“那哪行？”母亲似乎有些生气了，“三块钱不是钱？再说了，也不光是几块钱的事，做生意也得讲点良心，咱们辛辛苦苦种出来的米，质量也好，哪能这么贱卖了？”
　　我不敢再说。我知道种田有多么累。光说夏天放水，不就把爹给病倒了？弟弟也才十一二岁的毛孩子，还不得找着锄头去放水！毕竟，这是一家人的生计啊！
　　又有几个米贩子过来了，他们也都只出一块零五。有一两个出到一块零八，也不肯再加。母亲仍然不肯卖。
　　看看人渐渐少了，我有些着急了。母亲一定也很心急吧，我想。
　　“妈，你去那边树下凉快一下吧！”我说。
　　母亲一边擦汗，一边摇头：“不行。我走开了，来人买米怎么办？你又不会还价！”
　　我有些惭愧。“百无一用是书生”，虽然在学校里功课好，但这些事情上就比母亲差远了。
　　又有好些人来买米，因为我家的米实在是好，大家都过来看，但谁也不肯出到一块一。
　　看看日头到头顶上了，我觉得肚子饿了，便拿出带来的饭菜和母亲一起吃起来。母亲吃了两口就不吃了，我知道她是担心米卖不出去，心里着急。
　　母亲叹了口气：“还不知道卖得掉卖不掉呢。”
　　我趁机说：“不然就便宜点卖好了。”
　　母亲说：“我心里有数。”
　　下午人更少了，日头又毒，谁愿意在场上晒着呢。看看母亲，衣服都粘在背上了，黝黑的脸上也透出晒红的印迹来。
　　“妈，我替你看着，你去溪里泡泡去。”
　　母亲还是摇头：“不行，我有风湿，不能在凉水里泡。你怕热，去那边树底下躲躲好了。”
　　“不用，我不怕晒。”
　　“那你去买根冰棍吃好了。”
　　母亲说着，从兜里掏出两毛钱零钱来。
　　我最喜欢吃冰棍了，尤其是那种叫“葡萄冰”的最好吃，也不贵，两毛钱一根。但我今天突然不想吃了：“妈，我不吃，喝水就行。”
　　最热的时候也过去了，转眼快散场了。卖杂货的小贩开始降价甩卖，卖菜，卖西瓜的也都吆喝着：“散场了，便宜卖了！”
　　我四处看看，场上已经没有几个卖米的了，大部分人已经卖完回去了。母亲也着急起来，一着急，汗就出得越多了。
　　终于有个米贩子过来了：“这米卖不卖？一块零五，不讲价！”
　　母亲说：“你看我这米，多好！上场还卖一块一呢……”
　　不等母亲说完，那人就不耐烦地说：“行情不同了！想卖一块一，你就等着往回担吧！”
　　奇怪的是，母亲没有生气，反而堆着笑说：“那，一块零八，你要不要？”
　　那人从鼻子里哼了一声，说：“你这个价钱，不是开场的时候也难得卖出去，现在都散场了，谁买？做梦吧！”
　　母亲的脸一下子白了，动着嘴唇，但什么也没说。
　　一旁的我忍不住插嘴了：“不买就不买，谁稀罕？不买你就别站在这里挡道！”
　　“哟，大妹子，你别这么大火气。”那人冷笑着说，“留着点气力等会把米担回去吧！”
　　等那人走了，我忍不住埋怨母亲：“开场的时候人家出一块零八你不卖，这会好了，人家还不愿意买了！”
　　母亲似乎有些惭愧，但并不肯认错：“本来嘛，一分钱一分货，米是好米，哪能贱卖了？出门的时候你爹不还叮嘱叫卖个好价钱？”
　　“你还说爹呢！他病在家里，指着这米换钱买药治病！人要紧还是钱要紧？”
　　母亲似乎没有话说了，等了一会儿，低声说：“一会儿人家出一块零五也卖了吧。”
　　可是再没有人来买米了，米贩子把买来的米装上车，开走了。
　　散场了，我和母亲晒了一天，一颗米也没卖出去。
　　“妈，走吧，回去吧，别愣在那儿了。”
　　我收拾好毛巾、水壶、饭盒，催促道。
　　母亲迟疑着，终于起了身。
　　“妈，我来挑重的。”
　　“你学生妹子，肩膀嫩……”
　　不等母亲说完，我已经把那担重的挑起来了。母亲也没有再说什么，挑起那担轻的跟在我后面，踏上了回家的路。
　　肩上的担子好沉，我只觉得压着一座山似的。
　　突然脚下一滑，我差点摔倒。我赶紧把剩下的力气都用到腿上，好容易站稳了，但肩上的担子还是倾斜了一下，洒了好多米出来。
　　“啊，怎么搞的？”母亲也放下担子走过来，嘴里说，“我叫你不要挑这么重的，你偏不听，这不是洒了。多可惜！真是败家精！”
　　败家精是母亲的口头禅，我和弟弟干了什么坏事她总是这么数落我们。但今天我觉得格外委屈，也不知道为什么。
　　“你在这等会儿，我回家去拿个簸箕来把地上的米扫进去。浪费了多可惜！拿回去可以喂鸡呢！”母亲也不问我扭伤没有，只顾心疼洒了的米。
　　我知道母亲的脾气，她向来是“刀子嘴，豆腐心”的，虽然也心疼我，嘴里却非要骂我几句。想到这些，我也不委屈了。
　　“妈，你回去还要来回走个六七里路呢，时候也不早了。”我说。
　　“那地上的米怎么办？”
　　我灵机一动，把头上的草帽摘下来：“装在这里面好了。”
　　母亲笑了：“还是你脑子活，学生妹子，机灵。”
　　说着，我们便蹲下身子，用手把洒落在地上的米捧起来，放在草帽里，然后把草帽顶朝下放在谷箩里，便挑着米继续往家赶。
　　回到家里，弟弟已经回来了，母亲便忙着做晚饭，我跟父亲报告卖米的经过。父亲听了，也没抱怨母亲，只说：“那些米贩子也太黑了，城里都卖一块五呢，把价压这么低！这么挣庄稼人的血汗钱，太没良心了！”
　　我说：“爹，也没给你买药，怎么办？”
　　父亲说：“我本来就说不必买药的嘛，过两天就好了，花那个冤枉钱做什么！”
　　晚上，父亲咳嗽得更厉害了。母亲对我说：“琼宝，明天是转步的场，咱们辛苦一点，把米挑到那边场上去卖了，好给你爹买药。”
　　“转步？那多远，十几里路呢！”我想到那漫长的山路，不由有些发怵。
　　“明天你们少担点米去。每人担50斤就够了。”父亲说。
　　“那明天可不要再卖不掉担回来哦！”我说，“十几里山路走个来回，还挑着担子，可不是说着玩的！”
　　“不会了不会了。”母亲说，“明天一块零八也好，一块零五也好，总之都卖了！”
　　母亲的话里有许多辛酸和无奈的意思，我听得出来，但不知道怎么安慰她。
　　我自己心里也很难过，有点想哭。我想，别让母亲看见了，要哭就躲到被子里哭去吧。
　　可我实在太累啦，头刚刚挨到枕头就睡着了，睡得又香又甜。
　　（摘自《读者》2005年第2期）

一口六安黑锅和一个精神分裂的中国

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zHKRAhzvg6s

http://blog.boxun.com/hero/201806/zhangjie/1_1.shtml

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GOxHG8gWmHQ

Friday, June 1, 2018

六四事件是否讓中國轉型機遇擦身而过？(《中國研究院》第45次研討會)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DpYQpaDHAmQ

爆炸性美國法庭文件：中興是中共軍事情報機構前沿

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IOPZKstOQPY

社會信評 - 700多萬人已列黑名單

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6_JuGrP61-Q

GDP增長百姓財富卻快速縮水的真相

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=by_1LeOwfPM

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=73GWmiuL-eA

马光远：这不是抢房是抢钱 (2018-6-1)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U-Z-MMVLIj8

http://fs.fzg360.com/news/201806/140567_1.html

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zN_n7nUdTsg

习近平关于总体国家安全观论述摘编 (2018-4-1)

http://politics.people.com.cn/BIG5/n1/2018/0416/c1001-29926910.html

https://cn.nytimes.com/china/20180514/xi-jinping-china-national-security/zh-hant/

critical theory and psychoanalysis / psychotherapy

http://www.critical-theory.com/

https://nplusonemag.com/issue-2/the-intellectual-situation/death-is-not-the-end/

https://www.tandfonline.com/doi/abs/10.1179/1440991715Z.00000000055

https://philevents.org/event/show/38618

http://episjournal.com/journal-2016/adorno-critical-theory-and-psychoanalysis/

https://link.springer.com/chapter/10.1057/9781137460585_6

https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/16892949

https://www.palgrave.com/us/series/14941

https://www.palgrave.com/br/book/9781137460561

https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/11608781

Rozmarin, E. (2011). To Be Is to Betray: On the Place of Collective History
and Freedom in Psychoanalysis. Psychoanal. Dial., 21(3):320-345

https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/1yiHDcZ2HkYbkr23SI3YbLO589Y333uSB?usp=sharing

Nomothetic and idiographic

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Nomothetic_and_idiographic

https://www.simplypsychology.org/nomothetic-idiographic.html

https://louisenichols.wordpress.com/2011/09/30/nomothetic-research-vs-idiographic-research/

http://sw.get.com.tw/file/Paper/KP/762.pdf

Critical Existential Psycho-Analysis (Kevin Boileau, EPIS 2014)

Critical Existential Psycho-Analysis, by Kevin Boileau, EPIS Press, 2014

This volume is the second in a multi-volume series that explores and synthesizes the disparate discourses of existential phenomenology, psychoanalytic structuralism, and Critical Theory. This volume 2 examines existential phenomenology as an important critical foundation to existential psychoanalysis (both individual and cultural) by addressing the work of Dondeyne, Marcel, Merleau-Ponty, and Sartre. Through this examination, we can see how existential phenomenology can be used as a corrective to the distortions and sedimentations of the positivist forces in our scientific, social-political, aesthetic, intellectual, and spiritual discourses.(amazon)

On The Origin Of The Self: The Collected Papers of Henry Elkin (EPIS 2016)

On The Origin Of The Self: The Collected Papers of Henry Elkin, by Henry Elkin, EPIS Publishing Company, 2016

In this finely edited book of Henry Elkin's work, Loray Daws tells the story of Elkin's brilliance in a way that calls us once again to see Elkin's central concerns with soul and soul care without sentimentalism or pathologization. Elkin's life and work exhibit great courage and affirmative openness to engagement with disturbing and excluded topics at an open table set for individuals from various disciplines and walks of life. Daws' style also keeps Elkin's personal vulnerability at the heart of the matter, thus showing Elkin's dismantling of the fatal error of quarantining our humanity from our practices of care for those who suffer and entrust their well-being to us. ...The readership for this book should be massive and expand across any and every discipline whose charge it is to care for the lived meaning found in various life-worlds from womb to tomb. -- Professor Todd DuBose (amazon)