https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Tzimtzum
In the Jewish mystical tradition, God, before creating the world, needed to undergo a process known as tzimtzum, literally of contraction. God understood that for there to be room for a world, God would have to make room, contract God’s being. In discussing this creative moment, Linzer (2016) writes, ‘Ironically, though, if the creating is to build a space for the other, then such an act of personal expression must also be an act of personal contraction.’
One does not need to believe in a divine being to understand the profound implications of this idea; that living a humane life involves an ethical responsibility to others.
Edited by Sue Grand and Jill Salberg. Trans-generational Trauma and the Other (Relational Perspectives Book Series) (p. 14). Taylor and Francis. 2017, Kindle edition.
Sunday, December 15, 2019
問題出在交通工具
阻雪是天地蒼茫大雪封路行旅者遂困渡口小鎮無法前行這件事明顯是前現代的經驗我先前說過行止遂由天色決定就是此意那個年頭你急也沒用所以你只能慢那個年頭你跟天地還存在元素性的關係你的生命本身就是元素性的經驗的一部份所以至此而雪盛也是你看著客棧窗外滿天大雪點起一支紙菸時講的話這句話今日世界已經失去因為你跨上高鐵飛機把大雪拋在身後瞬間就來到南方的夏天
Saturday, December 14, 2019
至此而雪盛也
南歸阻雪 唐 孟浩然（689-740）
我行滯宛許，日夕望京豫。曠野莽茫茫，鄉山在何處。
孤煙村際起，歸雁天邊去。積雪覆平皋，飢鷹捉寒兔。
少年弄文墨，屬意在章句。十上恥還家，裴回守歸路。
孤煙村際起，歸雁天邊去。積雪覆平皋，飢鷹捉寒兔。
少年弄文墨，屬意在章句。十上恥還家，裴回守歸路。
雪峯義存（西元八二二～九〇八年）
德山宣鑒──雪峯義存
福州雪峯義存禪師，泉州南安人也，姓曾氏，家世奉佛。師生惡葷茹，於襁褓中，聞鐘梵之聲，或見幡華像設，必為之動容。年十二，從其父遊莆田玉澗寺，見慶玄律師，遽拜曰︰「我師也。」遂留侍焉。十七落髮。謁芙蓉山常照大師，照撫而器之。後往幽州寶剎寺受具足戒，久歷禪會，緣契德山。(（以上錄自《景德傳燈錄》卷一六，《大正藏》五一．三二七頁上）)
師在洞山作飯頭，淘米次，山問︰「淘沙去米，淘米去沙？」師曰︰「沙米一時去。」山曰︰「大眾喫箇什麼？」師遂覆卻米盆。山曰︰「據于因緣，合在德山。」
師蒸飯次，洞山問︰「今日蒸多少？」師曰︰「二石。」山云︰「莫不足麼？」師云︰「於中有不喫者。」山云︰「忽然總喫，又作麼生？」師無對。
師辭洞山，山曰︰「子甚麼處去？」師曰︰「歸嶺中去。」山曰︰「當時從甚麼路出？」師曰︰「從飛猿嶺出。」山曰︰「今回向甚麼路去？」師曰︰「從飛猿嶺去。」山曰︰「有一人不從飛猿嶺去，子還識得麼？」師曰︰「不識。」山曰︰「為甚麼不識？」師曰︰「佗無面目。」山曰︰「子既不識，爭知無面目？」師無對。
師謁德山，問︰「從上宗乘，學人還有分也無？」山打一棒曰︰「道甚麼？」師曰︰「不會。」至明日請益，山曰︰「我宗無語句，實無一法與人。」師有省。
後與巖頭（全豁禪師，德山法嗣，西元八二八～八八七年）至灃州鼇山鎮，阻雪。頭每日祇是打睡，師一向坐禪，一日喚曰︰「師兄師兄，且起來。」頭曰︰「作甚麼？」師曰︰「今生不著便，共文邃個漢，行腳到處被佗帶累。今日到此，又祇管打睡。」頭喝曰︰「噇眠去！每日床上坐，恰似七村裏土地，他時後日，魔魅人家男女去在。」師自點胸曰︰「我這裏未穩在，不敢自謾。」頭曰︰「我將謂你他日向孤峯頂上，盤結草庵，播揚大教，猶作這箇言語。」師曰︰「我實未穩在。」頭曰︰「你若實如此，據你所見處，一一通來，是處與你證明，不是處與你剗卻。」師曰︰「我初到鹽官（齊安禪師，馬祖法嗣），見上堂，舉色空義，得箇入處。」頭曰︰「此去三十年，切忌舉著。」「又見洞山過水偈曰︰切忌從他覓，迢迢與我疎，渠今正是我，我今不是渠。」頭曰︰「若與麼，自救也未徹在。」師又曰︰「後問德山︰從上宗乘中事，學人還有分也無？德山打一棒曰︰道甚麼？我當時如桶底脫相似。」頭喝曰︰「你不聞︰道從門入者，不是家珍。」師曰︰「他後如何即是？」頭曰︰「他後若欲播揚大教，一一從自己胸襟流出，將來與我蓋天蓋地去。」師於言下大悟。
（禪門驪珠集，二五零至二五二頁。）(以上錄自《雪峯義存禪師語錄》卷上，《卍續藏》一一九．九四四頁上─九四五頁上）
冬日筆記 Neville Symington
1. 關鍵是他是葡萄牙人
2. 你知道我對葡萄牙人很有好感
3. 我先前說過我是那個忘了怎麼離開台灣的最後一個葡萄牙人
4. 1986年他離開英國去澳大利亞
5. 這件事說明澳大利亞天氣很好(所以中國富二代官二代二奶狗娘養的雜種私生子都喜歡搬去澳大利亞跟孔子學中文是有理由的)
6. 也說明他在英國無法呼吸
7. 這件事Bion也發生過
8. 而Neville很喜歡Bion
9. 包括Bion的去洛杉磯
10.Neville的書寫我以前有點看不下去
11.因為有一種奇特的滑坡 (slippery slope)
12.你知道他有話要說
13.但他似乎說得很模糊
14.然後吊人胃口
15.這件事說明我以前沒有胃口
16.或沒有興趣被吊胃口
17.昨天開始讀他的Psychology of the Person (2012)
18.人的心理學
19,意思是說離開英國
20.一個人才能變成一個人
21.我想英國人會不服氣
22.有趣的是這本書沒有人寫過書評
23.可見大家都讀不懂
24.這點很有趣
财经冷眼：细数贸易条款的隐蔽地雷，川普让步国内遭猛批，狡猾的共匪获得哪些机会
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MIa4j8gfBpk
我先前說過這是重複了一九四五年前後國共和談的陷阱只不過當年倒楣的是國民黨和中國人今天倒楣的是川普和中國人搞了一個世紀這個世界還搞不清楚你跟土匪坐下來談只會被耍得團團轉然後被狠狠捅一刀你他媽的怎麼會相信土匪的承諾有他媽的任何信用可言
Friday, December 13, 2019
台灣庶民的一天大事
崔元凱負責簽字這件事說明傻逼老崔多麼善良後面操盤的王岐山多麼邪惡
韓國瑜擀麵條給你吃這件事說明台灣庶民喜歡吃麵不喜歡叫雞也不喜歡當匪諜
剛剛想到不禁悲觀起來因為善良不敵邪惡因為邪惡才有意志
意思是說善良是一團麵粉溼答答的黏糊糊的善於妥協善於體諒
邪惡是為達目的不擇一切手段這種終極的仇恨的獰笑會讓你不寒而慄
這時天色已暗等一下要去餵流浪貓每天半個魚肉罐頭黑貓個子不大這是今天的大事
所以你知道我多麼沒用多麼窩囊就是那團麵粉濕答答的黏糊糊的善於妥協善於體諒
跨代的腐蝕 (transgenerational transmission)
1.
Haunting Legacies: Violent Histories and
Transgenerational Trauma,
by Gabriele Schwab, Columbia
University Press, 2010
2. Wounds of History (Relational
Perspectives Book Series), ed. by Jill Salberg, Sue Grand, Routledge, 2016
3. Trans-generational Trauma and
the Other: Dialogues across history and difference (Relational Perspectives
Book Series), ed. by Sue Grand, Jill Salberg, Routledge, 2016
4. Ghosts in the Consulting Room:
Echoes of Trauma in Psychoanalysis (Relational Perspectives Book Series 75),
ed. by Adrienne Harris, Margery Kalb, Susan Klebanoff, Routledge, 2016
5. Demons in the Consulting Room:
Echoes of Genocide, Slavery and Extreme Trauma in Psychoanalytic Practice
(Relational Perspectives Book Series), ed. by Adrienne Harris,
Margery Kalb, Susan Klebanoff, Routledge, 2016
6. Killing in the Name of Identity:
A Study of Bloody Conflicts, by Vamik Volkan, Pitchstone
Publishing, 2006
7. Enemies on the Couch: A
Psychopolitical Journey Through War and Peace, by Vamik Volkan, Pitchstone
Publishing, 2013
https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/1ThWxBSiJpEkAry_JqtFZPHXUrIdl6fNP?usp=sharing
被沉默 被扭曲 被謊言 只剩 憤怒 仇恨 無法回憶 無法不惡夢 無法原諒 無法忘懷 無法正義 就是腐蝕
Thursday, December 12, 2019
Stealth War: How China Took Over While America's Elite Slept (Robert Spalding, Portfolio, 2019-10-1)
China expert Robert Spalding reveals the shocking success China has had infiltrating American institutions and compromising our national security.
The media often suggest that Russia poses the greatest threat to America's national security, but the real danger lies farther east. While those in power have been distracted and disorderly, China has waged a six-front war on America's economy, military, diplomacy, technology, education, and infrastructure--and they're winning. It's almost too late to undo the shocking, though nearly invisible, victories of the Chinese.
In Stealth War, retired Air Force Brigadier General Robert Spalding reveals China's motives and secret attacks on the West. Chronicling how our leaders have failed to protect us over recent decades, he provides shocking evidence of some of China's most brilliant ploys, including:
• Placing Confucius Institutes in universities across the United States that serve to monitor and control Chinese students on campus and spread communist narratives to unsuspecting American students.
• Offering enormous sums to American experts who create investment funds that funnel technology to China.
• Signing a thirty-year agreement with the US that allows China to share peaceful nuclear technology, ensuring that they have access to American nuclear know-how.
Spalding's concern isn't merely that America could lose its position on the world stage. More urgently, the Chinese Communist Party has a fundamental loathing of the legal protections America grants its people and seeks to create a world without those rights.
Despite all the damage done so far, Spalding shows how it's still possible for the U.S. and the rest of the free world to combat--and win--China's stealth war. (amazon)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZnZqxeO8BXg
The media often suggest that Russia poses the greatest threat to America's national security, but the real danger lies farther east. While those in power have been distracted and disorderly, China has waged a six-front war on America's economy, military, diplomacy, technology, education, and infrastructure--and they're winning. It's almost too late to undo the shocking, though nearly invisible, victories of the Chinese.
In Stealth War, retired Air Force Brigadier General Robert Spalding reveals China's motives and secret attacks on the West. Chronicling how our leaders have failed to protect us over recent decades, he provides shocking evidence of some of China's most brilliant ploys, including:
• Placing Confucius Institutes in universities across the United States that serve to monitor and control Chinese students on campus and spread communist narratives to unsuspecting American students.
• Offering enormous sums to American experts who create investment funds that funnel technology to China.
• Signing a thirty-year agreement with the US that allows China to share peaceful nuclear technology, ensuring that they have access to American nuclear know-how.
Spalding's concern isn't merely that America could lose its position on the world stage. More urgently, the Chinese Communist Party has a fundamental loathing of the legal protections America grants its people and seeks to create a world without those rights.
Despite all the damage done so far, Spalding shows how it's still possible for the U.S. and the rest of the free world to combat--and win--China's stealth war. (amazon)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZnZqxeO8BXg
Neville Symington (1937 to 2019) (2019-12-3)
http://www.nevillesymington.com/
The origins of his book on narcissism came about, in Symington's words, when "I started to work on the subject of Psychoanalysis and Religion, and it came to me quite early in that research that the connecting link between the two disciplines was narcissism".
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Neville_Symington
https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/17CVclQ_pdQF_TYM-Z_jVGeUrSBvj1iLq?usp=sharing
now, this is interesting indeed, for a former priest, to become a psychoanalyst, who focused on narcissiam, and religion, and then the person
The origins of his book on narcissism came about, in Symington's words, when "I started to work on the subject of Psychoanalysis and Religion, and it came to me quite early in that research that the connecting link between the two disciplines was narcissism".
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Neville_Symington
https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/17CVclQ_pdQF_TYM-Z_jVGeUrSBvj1iLq?usp=sharing
now, this is interesting indeed, for a former priest, to become a psychoanalyst, who focused on narcissiam, and religion, and then the person
24
12/12 7:21 AM, wintry sun, cool; laughable, and, of course, not worth it; AM 10:30, one ER, drug overdose, depression, 路倒, adm to CV first; AM 3:30, two consults, one heroin abuse with Rt tibiofibular fracture s/p, arrange MMT; one ER, blind OU, schizophrenia, history of head injury, cancelled consult; 9:00 PM, one ER, alcoholism, depression, 路倒, adm; 10:00 PM, H2, back pain; 11:00 PM, H2, elderly, 99 y/o, dementia with BPSD, fever;
Wednesday, December 11, 2019
司馬遷是中國第一個私家偵探
你讀的歷史不是你父母親活過的歷史
你的兒女讀的歷史不是你活過的歷史
意思是說歷史跟活過的歷史是兩回事
後者需要私家偵探抽絲剝繭才能重述
這是為什麼大歷史學家必須長相猥瑣
至於宮刑實在過分明顯是個不幸意外
因為中國和台灣都沒有私家偵探
所以你知道兩岸都沒有歷史學家
有趣的是都宣稱有歷史
所以我們都回不到歷史
傑克的牙刷
Jack
Reacher 的牙刷
是僅存的文明的象徵
這件事舒淇知道當然
我比較喜歡年輕比較不喜歡穿衣服的舒淇
這時天落起雨來
康拉德說跨過那條陰影的線
你就長大不再衝動
就可以混口飯吃了
你可能不知道
康拉德之所以為康拉德
是因為康拉德的父親
是一個無名的詩人和譯家
所以創造力發生在跨代的積累
是意外也是必然
這件事說明心理治療
或Genogram為什麼要追溯三代
目的不是尋找精神病理的解釋
而是為此世今生混口飯吃立命
弔詭的是恰恰是混口飯吃
為混口飯吃之外的創造提供了素材
意思是說那口飯
可以隨隨便便不必講究
你認為這時
我跨過了那條陰影的線沒有
康拉德的敘事風格
重要的是離題 (digression) 重要的是不只一個敘事者這兩者的結果是我們的主人翁其實是被敘事者意思是說被檢視的生命但又非被第三人稱的全知者檢視上述沒有說明為什麼必須離題我想是因為他在海上的時間太長了他知道跟海說話必須離題換句話說離題就是泉湧離題的本質是水
為什麼重拾康拉德
因為那是二十年的大海當然也包括那六個月的非洲溯河之行意思是說那個年頭船開得很慢所以你被養成巨大的元素性的耐心然後你上岸了我很高興康拉德曾後悔對這個決定
David Bone was fond of quoting JC’s comment to
him on the publication of his novel, The Brassbounder (1910): “Stick to the
ship. If I had known that writing would take me away from the sea, I would
never have published a line.”
Joseph Conrad Memories and Impressions An
Annotated Bibliography, by Martin Ray, Rodopi, 2007, p. 120
Violence in the Consulting Room
https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/18KfrFNcRJdsiA8xbOqEntfjl2gHjU2OD?usp=sharing
https://www.amazon.com/Bombs-Consulting-Room-Surviving-Psychological-ebook/dp/B07S3XRPR1/ref=sr_1_fkmr3_2?keywords=violence+in+the+consulting+room&qid=1576000377&s=books&sr=1-2-fkmr3
https://www.amazon.com/Bombs-Consulting-Room-Surviving-Psychological-ebook/dp/B07S3XRPR1/ref=sr_1_fkmr3_2?keywords=violence+in+the+consulting+room&qid=1576000377&s=books&sr=1-2-fkmr3
Joseph Conrad's Autobiographies: The Mirror of the Sea (1906) and A Personal Record (1912)
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/A_Personal_Record
https://www.amazon.com/Joseph-Conrads-Autobiographies-Mirror-Personal/dp/1546309012/ref=sr_1_1?crid=29MXPPQ4I1F45&keywords=a+personal+record+joseph+conrad&qid=1575997709&sprefix=a+personal+record+%2Caps%2C1023&sr=8-1
The Mirror of the Sea, published in 1906, is an autobiography written by Joseph Conrad. The book provides an excellent in-depth look at Conrad's experiences as a mate on a steamer. A Personal Record, published in 1912, is Conrad's second autobiography. The book provides great insight into Conrad's schooling in Russian Poland as well as his sailing in Marseille. Joseph Conrad was a Polish-British writer who is considered to be one of the greatest authors in English literature. Conrad's books contain much of the elements seen in 19th-century realism but his modernistic writing also influenced many great authors that followed including Faulkner, Hemingway, and Orwell. Conrad wrote classics in many different genres and many of his works were based off his experiences at sea as a British merchant marine. (amazon)
https://www.amazon.com/Joseph-Conrads-Autobiographies-Mirror-Personal/dp/1546309012/ref=sr_1_1?crid=29MXPPQ4I1F45&keywords=a+personal+record+joseph+conrad&qid=1575997709&sprefix=a+personal+record+%2Caps%2C1023&sr=8-1
The Mirror of the Sea, published in 1906, is an autobiography written by Joseph Conrad. The book provides an excellent in-depth look at Conrad's experiences as a mate on a steamer. A Personal Record, published in 1912, is Conrad's second autobiography. The book provides great insight into Conrad's schooling in Russian Poland as well as his sailing in Marseille. Joseph Conrad was a Polish-British writer who is considered to be one of the greatest authors in English literature. Conrad's books contain much of the elements seen in 19th-century realism but his modernistic writing also influenced many great authors that followed including Faulkner, Hemingway, and Orwell. Conrad wrote classics in many different genres and many of his works were based off his experiences at sea as a British merchant marine. (amazon)
Tuesday, December 10, 2019
中国下令政府部门三年内换用国产电脑与软件
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ysyFYoC7g_I
瑞銀公布一百個中國富豪貪汙所得 = 七點八二萬億美元
親愛的十四億中國同胞 你要不要打真正的趙家土豪 分一點真正的田地
guilt vs. shame
前者為罪是人與神的關係與救贖有關
後者為愧(或恥)是人與人的關係與面子有關
一般說法是中國人
只有後者沒有前者
後者不等同倫理學
Levinas跟孔子說過
當我們說無愧於天地
前者後者都包括在內
天地和神的差別是
有點籠統
當我們說港警必被天收
其實是對天地有所期望
希望它等同於祂
意思是說中國人的形上世界裡
在這個期望中來到神學的邊緣
為什麼重拾康拉德
因為他的一生是流亡中的流亡
Virginia
Woolf是這麼說的
Suddenly,
without giving us time to arrange our thoughts or prepare our phrases, our
guest has left us; and his withdrawal without farewell or ceremony is in
keeping with his mysterious arrival, long years ago, to take up his lodging in
this country. For there was always an air of mystery about him. It was partly
his Polish birth, partly his memorable appearance, partly his preference for living
in the depths of the country, out of ear-shot of gossips …
是因為海
近日重拾康拉德
是因為海
Heart of Darkness 和 Lord Jim
是四十年前的海
後期康拉德寫的陸地故事
有點像劇情過度曲折的間諜電影
明顯敗筆
已不見海
這件事說明
二十四十之間
必須見海
否則你
見不到康拉德
Monday, December 9, 2019
有趣的敘事
有趣的敘事必須有不只一個敘事者
意思是說不是從頭到尾的第一人稱或第三人稱而已
這很佔篇幅所以是指長篇故事
有趣的敘事必須有不只一個時序
意思是說不是從頭到尾年譜般的紀事
這會讓讀者困惑但這是時間和回憶的本質
有趣的敘事必須有不只一個邏輯
這和上述不只一個敘事者有關
而且即使只有一個敘事者
這個單數的他都擁有不只一個邏輯
這我們稱之為敘事中的鬼魅
有趣的敘事必須有一點意外
意外的必要在於奧林匹亞山上神祉的嘲弄
意外的本質是這不是敘事者能夠決定的
有點像你以為你可以預測天災人禍
但每次事後你都慨然你畢竟無法完美預測
心理動力的本質就是這個慨然
有趣的敘事必須有有趣的情節
有趣的情節的本質不是誇張也不是離奇
而是千山萬水或洗了五千個碗後
捕捉到一個瞬間
在那個瞬間
你知道了原本屬於奧林匹亞山上的神祉的知道
但弔詭的是有趣的敘事
來不到那個知道
雖然經驗已經穿過你
千瘡百孔體無完膚
意思是說所剩無幾的殘局的廢墟的你
是有趣的敘事的唯一誠實的結局
面對這個誠實
連奧林匹亞山上的神祉都無言以對
的瞬間
你知道
我在想像的
是這個瞬間
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